[Produced by Nor'Ledges]
[Verse 1]
I've been writing for days
Inspiration won't hit me
Wanna get paid
But I have no place in Britain
Or really anywhere
See I'm very scared
Maybe I'm an alien
I just know I'm very weird
I just know that I'll never be Hemingway
(f**)
Die a failure like Fitzgerald
I'll never make it
I should give up now
What's the point if I'll never get better?
If I'll never see
The presidency
Of a person
With a skin tone similar to me
We'll never progress
We'll never get acceptance
My brain is always running
Someone should give it a medal
(f**)
Cause these thoughts
Are so unbearable
Sometimes it's so hard
To care at all
The world is so painful
I wanna leave
It all behind
And just be me
[Interlude]
I've found that
Every moment in my f**ing life
Has culminated at this one point
As i toke on this one joint
And i take a smoke break
Looking for the point
This sh** is poignant when you think about it
But you know thinking will k** you
I'm on my own if I go far enough
How do you be the real you?
I'm trying to muscle through the f**ing pain
I'm trying to tell myself I'll be ok
But I won't be ok
So I should give up
I'm just my dad in the end
I'm a k**er
[Verse 2]
What kind of world
Do we live in?
If these kids are getting k**ed and we're
Turning the other cheek so that we don't
Have to deal with the mo'f**ing fear
That everything isn't alright
And I'm not saying that I'm unafraid
But how can these respected people
Get by preying on the underaged?
Shouldn't they be praying for the underaged?
I wanna go for a long walk
I wanna f**ing disappear
I want my listeners to care
But I'm tired
And I don't really care
I am just a liar too
Everything that I ever do
Will fail
So I'm gon' leave it all to you
[Interlude]
Psst, hey jai
It's your conscience
And I know that this is cliche
But you're becoming a monster
You're letting this sh** grow
And k** you inside
And i know you're doing your best
But you're not doing it right
And I know you're depressed as hell
You know that I feel your pain
But jai, get up off the ground
You'll never live again
And don't you dare condemn yourself
To this worthless lifestyle
Be a virtuoso
Be worth what you know
And you might find
Yourself
Think about it
This is a crisis
Find a solution
I don't doubt you
I know you're trying your best
I know that you're so stressed
You're tired of f**ing tests
You feel like a f**ing mess
But think
[Verse 3]
You're right
Pick myself up off the ground
I will fight
I've been through too much
To give up on this life
My mama prayed for me
Now Ima make her smile
She's gon' smile
We're gon' smile
We're gon' rule the world
They ain't gon' ruin the world
We're gonna build a new world
Freedom is key
We don't need no rulers
We don't need no rulers
[Outro]
You can break us but we've got a warranty
So don't try and dishonour me