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[Hook]
You've been gone for so long it's time to let go
You disappeared in the shadows, just trying to save your soul
You left me all alone and now you're too far gone
So gone...
[Verse 1]
I woke up last night, in a cold sweat
Having visions of events I didn't know yet
Visions of things that I couldn't see, prayin that it couldn't be
Tried layin it away but I couldn't sleep
Took a reach for my phone to send a text
Then made a call with no success, just a dial tone
So my doubts grow, his life flashed before my eyes
Every milestone ... from his first breaths
First steps, first bout wit depression, first percocet
First pregnancy scare, but they aborted that
Lost in my thoughts, a loud knock brought it back
Officers on my steps, sorry with regrets
We found this cross around his neck at the bottom of the James
I said no, check my DNA, it's probably a mistake
But when the test came positive I lost it in a rage
And the pain only grew knowin dreams come true
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[Verse 2]
8:30, daddy comes home by himself
With a look in his eyes, that words can't express
An embrace, but even that can't ease the stress
He just lost his own flesh, and I lost my best
Friend, so I'm faced, with thoughts I can't share
For a loss I can't bear, at a cost I can't pay
I cast a blank stare, with words I can't say
It's weight I can't carry, a burden I can't take!
At his wake, daddy said a man's only able...
To play the cards in his hand
Well I say it's more about the players, why'd he sit at that table
The stakes were way too high, he never had a chance
Pictures on the wall and it's hard to even glance
I'm tempted to rip 'em off, blame him for circumstance
Tomorrow I graduate, he said he'd been in the stands
... Guess that's how go the best laid plans
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[Verse 3]
This morning my wife read in the obituaries
That they buried my old friend in a cemetary
Concern in her eyes, I told her worry
He was lost a long time ago, this a formality
He was at war in the streets, its gon be casualties
And he did d** and women the same, casually
I brought the calvary, put him through an intervention
... but all that did was extend the distance
Between me and him and, between his woman
And a different misses, between his freedom and a bid in prison
Between reality .. and his mental visions ...
And his bad habitats was a catalyst, additional inches
Honestly I miss him, not gonna lie
But I knew everyday he lived was borrowed time
So sorry, but you won't see sorrow in my eyes
Cause he's been gone for a long time, and I let go
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