[Produced by Sinh & Masego]
[Intro]
Yeah yeah yeah
And if in the long run we lose each other
I hope you sleep good up under covers
And I'm hoping that I find another
Or myself..
[Verse]
Yeah
I hope I find myself
My nightmares having nightmares, I'm coughing up blood
Crying memories I never had, begins with a touch
A hit of the blunt, that takes me high enough that it's love
But I can't judge either cause I've never had neither
I think I need a breather but I'm going deeper drownin' in this liter
I think I need to leave her ‘cause the pain is sweeter if it's
Only enjoyed in lonesome, you could call this sh** a poem or a soliloquy
If given the ability I'd probably heal
My broken body with a 12 gauge shotty
But I've awoken to my senses and officially I haven't felt felicity
Or any other similes, just a numbing ecstasy, wait
Blissfully I found my enemy, the man in the mirror
Five of him appearing, it's my destiny and endlessly
I battle through the jealousy and utter confusion
Wonder if life's an illusion, am I just another entity?
It's all really depressing me, what if the conclusion
Doesn't match my identity, it might be more gruesome
Who I am I trying to start a f**ing revolution? Nobody
I'm just another human trying to outrun time with these lines that rhyme
I wouldn't be the first to have a thought that divine
To have a little light shine on my flawed state of mind
Try to find answers as this chill haunts and shivers up my spine
And I'm thinking back to your smile; well really it's two
‘Cause I can't choose between a brunette or a black headed boo
Really it's not my decision, you're both better off without me
Your vision doesn't include me and I'm a little bit drowsy
But not an ounce tired, in addition I'm conflicted
I feel so restricted and this is all unscripted
As I'm writing these scriptures I guess una**isted, God?
No one's there anyway cause we could all die any day
The bullets don't have names but yet they're always on layaway
Sometimes they ricochet, sometimes they're on full display
Other times I just want some novacane for the pain
[Outro]
For the pain, for the pain
From this cold, cold rain
From this cold, cold rain
Where the flowers don't bloom
And the sun don't shine
And I never find you
From this cold, cold rain
Where the flowers don't bloom
And my eyes don't shine
From this cold, cold rain