I crave the idea of these things
Diamond with gold rings
Well in the background a canary sings
I wanna be living fruitful
But need to diminish my pride
Need to stay humble
But to hard work i need to abide
A lot of the times, i feel lonely inside
Sad
Thinking what if i blew my opportunity
To have unity with a soul
Be the root of the pole
The fire to the coal
The bobcat to a the hole
What if it was me
Who deferred a dream
No langston, but changed my own hues
From a vibrant variety to all blues
My own brain inside is the problem I see
And the only way i know how to solve it is with apathy
But i still chase these dreams
Still find a way to pick myself off the floor
Currently living in a failure galore
Trying to see the light on the other side
But it always seems to be blocked by my own mind
My o my
What if i am bi-polar
What if i should take anti-depressants
Cause the mind of these adolescence
Is so different from mine
Maybe its just a sign
Just god telling me i gotta work harder
Push myself farther
Take the breaking point and push it
Sometimes i feel like im losing my mental
Thinking life is just a rental
Get to sentimental
Nostalgic
Im appalled and feel repulsive
But f** it
I keep pursuing these dreams
They shine on in my mind like light beams
That prod through the seams
Can't u see my schemes arnt memes just obscene means to conquer these dreams
Im a fiend when it comes to them
An animal
Animorph
Avacote
Who a**a**inates dreamer's abstinence
A boy who beckons at the pen
And decends through the rap he mends
A creator in the mind
A loss in the find
A crease in the fine
A bend in the line
Wow look at me, im a dent to redefine
But im unique specifically
So my words give me authenticity
Lyrically im the apitimy of chivalry
Hit u with the tongue as my blade
Thoughts as the shield
Wield edged steel
But dont keel or appeal
To how u motherf**ers feel
To ridged from the rivers
Dead from deprivation
Speak tones like a wanna be caucasian
Everbody's to busy with hatin, blazin, and hazin, yall gun dry out like a raisin
Well im raisn to higher levels
Diving into deeper depths
To become the better than the f**ing best
To rule all the rest
Im on a quest
Yes this is how it is and how it seems
Cause when they ask why im always sleeping, i say im chasing my dreams