All around, I hear the sound of my dreams crushing
Nearly 23, but feel like I've achieved nothing
Maybe I spent too much time chilling and weed puffing
Or just was unmotivated cuz of mc's mean mugging
But please, you got me down on my knees
Asking God why these other rappers made it and I couldn't succeed
Cuz yo I see alot of mc's who don't got any sk**s
But still get record deal strictly for their s** appeal
And I feel like I never will, is this how the game works?
I guess that I'm not dressed for this sh** and need to change first
I need to spit a lame verse about money and women
Just so you'd listen, f**, if that's the public opinion
Then I don't even wanna make it, I should put my focus elsewhere
And if I'd quit this rap sh** I wonder who the hell 'd care
I even know some people who'd be happy if I quit it
I'm at a point where I'm about to pack my bags at any minute
Cuz I'm frustrated, f** waiting, man I've waited long enough
This weight on my shoulders is getting heavy, I'm not strong enough
Every now and then somebody tells me that I'm dope as f**
And I give them a decent smile but inside I'm choking up
If I'm that dope, why do I barely have shows and such
And some of these other wack cats do even though they s**
If this is the way the game goes, then sh**, I'm sick of rap
This game is f**ing politics, you gotta be a diplomat
So many rappers who be telling me that my sh** is crack
But when i ask to spit a track with me, they never hit me back
I frequently see them in the streets and then they give me daps
But in reality they talk behind my back, that sh** is wack
I know I talk alot of sh** when I be spitting raps
But I show support to everyone trying to make it and it's a fact
And honestly, I feel like that's how it's supposed to be
But y'all don't feel the same way, y'all 'd be happy if I don't succeed
This game's f**ed up, I might leave it today
Cuz I feel like I'm all alone & have no reason to stay
I'm walking down a dark road and I'm feeling astray
To be honest I don't think I deserve to be treated this way
Y'all don't know it but I've been feeling like that a couple years
Now I've had it up to here, sh** I'm sad enough to tear
You rappers hated on me in the past enough, it's clear
That you f*ggot a** ba*tards rather have me disappear
f** you! I don't need your support or help
I do this for my friends, for my fans but most of all, I do this for myself
I wanted to become successful since I was a teen
But it seems that sh** was nothing more than just a dream
I'm stuck between love and hate
Fantasized about a glammour life, now I realise that sh** 's f**ing fake
I'm in a rat race surrounded by a bunch of snakes
Trying to keep up the pace, my girl telling me I should cut the brakes
Cuz she don't want me to come to a stop
Cuz she knows how much I love this hip hop
Saying that my music is great
But wait, then how come that it flopped?
I'm confused, don't know in which direction to move
Think you do? take a second to step in my shoes
There's nothing left to prove, I done lost every hope
That's how I feel, this is, the realest I ever wrote