[Hook] Sometimes......sometimes I just ask myself what is life
All this pain an f**in stress man this sh** is just a mess
So I just ask , what is life (speaking)
[Intro] Lord as I walk thru the valley of the shadow of d**h , I will fear no evil for thou are with me , I ask you to steer me away from all negative things , an watch over me on my journey
-Kam James
[First Verse]
Man I swear lately
I been thinking kinda different
Been having scattered thoughts an it's really been f**ing up my vision
I think The life that I'm living ain't the life I shoulda been given
They say the gra** gets greener but why has my side always looked different
Cause , It's Never been bright n***a
An the sad truth , My mom and dad never been right n***a
I Wish somebody could of shed some light on this thing we call life n***a
Just gave me a litttttle insight !
Like the devil Gonna try to make his own invite
Or , all the ya Friends ain't ya real friends
Some just pretend an they come go like muthaf**in wind
Damn
These people change with the Seasons
I'm just Tryna find something that I can believe in
Doctors cutt my momma pay for no f**ing reason
(An they , wonn-derr , why we steady acting like some heathens !) -stretch it with emphasis
An n***as getting f**ed up for no f**ing reason
sh** , really I'm just Tryna figure out the meaning
BeCause these demons scheming
Man what's the reasons
An you can't trust the deacons
Cause they f** the weak ones
So I'm staying grounded Like my feet in the cement
Tryna build my allegiance, this the new pledge of allegiance
One dream , just me , no one ever believed it
Told em watch, just see, while I'll reach my achievements
Now they wanna come running up an I tell em be seated
I never asked for grievance, cause I never would need it
Now that they see a n***a moving, now ! they wanna believe me
Now they wanna salute me,like when the presidents speaking
Im Not saying I'm conceited but I can't defeated
Cause this exactly what the f** the people been needing , b**h!
[Hook]
So sometimes , sometimes, sometimes I just ask myself what is life
They say life is what happens To you , when you are busy making other plans, an its better to fail in originality, then too succeed in imitation
So sh** ,you decide
[Second Verse]
So many years
Shed so many tears
Overcame so many fears
But look n***a ,I'm still here!
Only n***a that didn't walk across the stage
But Soon, ima be paid to walk on stage
I caannt, even explain that feeling I felt
But I strapped the pain on just like it was belt
I ain't wanna hear sh**, no words would help I just wanted to disappear an go MUTHAf**in stealth
No mom or dad just pen an pad only thing that helped with the feelings I had
With thoughts I was thinking everything was sinking , emotionally drowning man I was fallen in the deep in
So now I'm thinking
(I gotta , turn this around ) "broken"
Only way is up , wen u on the f**in ground
Be-CAUSE I know this ain't the life for me
This just don't feel right to me
Those bright lights enlighten me
But these words make it so I can see
So I gotta do what's right for me !
Man I gotta do what's right for me
Yeah!