[Intro: James Lanning]
No I don't believe you
All jokes aside
I'd die to leave you
Heaven knows I tried, Lord knows I tried
No I don't believe you
Don't act surprised
Your words are see through
Smell the bleach and lies
No I've never known the color of your eyes
The color of your eyes
[Verse 1: James Lanning]
Everything is everything, yea so they tell me
Yet anything that ain't myself I been trying to sell me
I said it sitting in a cell I won't be the same
Then ended up swimming in hell in the freezing rain
I swear I barely even felt when the season changed
I didn't even know I'd fell til the bleeding came
Whoever said that I might be a little jaded
Ain't right it's more complicated sh** I might even pray that they wrong
I would spend everything night being bitter hating
A price that's still inflating sh** I might even pay all day long
I been thinking about it all day
And I still don't have the answer like I called Sway
New lights in the hallway
I see the walls but I'm trying to feel'em always
I keep on, then sit back, and then fall, but intact
Now be strong, don't relax, or be long, you belong
I'm sick of feeling like a victim when we both did me wrong
sh** hit the ceiling like predicted did you notice me gone?
If nothing matters like “Bohemian Rhapsody”
Then what the f** I'm mad at? Guess it's me isn't that sh**ty
I kicked but miss the habit so don't see me and have pity
I sifted splintered gla** for my key in this mad city and
[Chorus: James Lanning]
It's so cold
How you do me like that
Yea I wrote you a letter and I called
But you ain't write back
Yea I gave you my heart and my flaws
And you threw it right back
Yea you threw it right back
Yea you ain't write back
Yea I ain't write back (it's so cold)
[Verse 2: James Lanning]
Whoever said that I might be a little jaded is right
I'm steady fading man I'm flying afraid I'm a fall
Every regret is just like we just licked the blade of a knife
It's in my face and I just lie that I ain't in withdrawal
I've been wondering where the days went
I see my shape bend and fade on the pavement
It's like I'm waiting on arraignment
I should of stayed in Hell Gate in the basement
But who the f** would want to finish in five minutes?
And who the f** you gonna give a call with just nine digits?
Realizing this isn't as simple as finding if
You're willing to climb bridges or fit in as I didn't
And I admitted that I ain't who I wanted to be
I only listen to myself with a gun up to me
I'm selfish, no I don't give myself nothing for free
Said that when we're someone else we'll be something to see
[Chorus: James Lanning]
It's so cold
How you do me like that
Yea I wrote you a letter and I called
But you ain't write back
Yea I gave you my heart and my flaws
And you threw it right back
Yea you threw it right back
Yea you ain't write back
Yea I ain't write back, (it's so cold)
[Bridge: James Lanning]
Your tongue is blind
I've seen your smile a thousand times
You see me smile come run inside
Don't hold me down I drown in highs
[Verse 3: James Lanning]
I'm too impatient to sit at this show
Yea I've yet to try to hide I considered it though
They say my mind like a violin that's missing a note
I'm either silent or snide or a mix of them both
I've been listening close
All I hear is the floorboards
I could of sworn I was hitting doors with full force
I'm bored with performance goodbye horses
I'm torn to wait for it or should I force this
Walking home from the East Village ready to forfeit
I spent years running from it really wandering towards it
I'm afraid to be medicated I've tried to ignore sh**
I'd hate to celebrate or even kind of endorse it
Plus we've seen what they did to Regina, You lost your stomach for months
Man they'd just pump her with d** before we'd greet her
Man I'd always break down when I'd leave her
Staring at her looking for a single piece or a fragment of her demeanor
And after we didn't even speak for over a year
If we'd meet I had this feeling she'd be holding a mirror
I'm near Woodhull every week and become frozen in fear
Don't know where I want to be but it's nowhere that here
Sincerely if you come in leave the furniture please
I'm deciding if I'll even be resigning the lease
At least, I have this window for whomever to see
Man I'm damn near everything I said I never would be
[Chorus: James Lanning]
How you do me like that?
Yea I wrote you a letter and I called
But you ain't write back
Yea I gave you my heart and my flaws
And you threw it right back
So I ain't write back
Yea I ain't write back
Yea I threw it right back