[Chorus]
I don't think I'll ever be sober
Talk about life like it's already over, Lord
I don't think I'll ever be sober
Talk about life like it's already over, Lord
Tell me, tell me, tell me, tell me, tell me
Have you ever been terrified of your darkest fears becoming verified
By your destitution, no resolution
Tell me, tell me, tell me, tell me, tell me
Have you ever been terrified of your darkest fears becoming verified
By your destitution, no resolution
Tell me, tell me, tell me, tell me
I don't think I'll ever be sober
Talk about life like it's already over, Lord
Yeah, tell me, tell me, tell me, tell me, tell me
Have you ever been terrified of your darkest fears becoming verified
By your destitution, no resolution
[Verse 1]
My darkest secret, my closest friend
Is my lonely pen, so let the pain begin
Now, we could put it on a page for people to read
A make a couple dope lines, you better believe it
Never taking it easy, I was trying to appease every solitary soul
That would listen to me, but I
Realized that it's all fake, not real
I figured out people take but never give, and don't nobody give a f** about the truth
Or what it means to you, you're barely making it through
You was living with a dollar and a dream, plus a miniscule scheme
Everything ain't what it seems
When I looked in the mirror but couldn't recognize the person I'd become
A n***a I despise, but otherwise I'm obliged to describe my demise
Surprised a motherf**er didn't make it, he couldn't take it
No resignation, his dedication was steady fading
But what he facing was so amazing, what you did to phase him
A difficult dilemma dependent upon a mental aspect
Flow abstract, n***as can't match that, detached to make a fat batch
Of the dopeness, a n***a wasn't this real then everybody would notice
We live in a world completely a** backwards, at least for the thanks and no please
Rankest police yank and murder a young n***a then leave him out on the pavement
Debating the basis of all of your hatred
I told myself that I would work and never start complaining
Can't be complacent, don't seek the fame
As I reach the brain let's beseech the cadence
I kept aside so I could try to survive
And lately I've been getting high for the pain I confide, Lord
[Chorus]
I wanna make a change but it's never that easy
Really hard when you're trying to develop an image and give the people
The realest they ever heard
Talking poetry in motion, I'm speaking a spoken word, absurd, we differ within the pain and really live in a lie but the sign that I presented was a ridiculous vibe
A ride inside of my mind really defines it all, but if you really took a look I know you'd be appalled
Now take a step back, no need to relapse, but last week I was fine, I recently relapsed, I've rehashed the issues a n***a never dealt with, I wanna survive, it's like I'm barely alive. I'm lost inside of a typhoon, I'm feeling helpless, I'm so selfish, I've been relentless, defenseless, my independence is not dependent upon the pendent, don't really style, stupid n***as are trending, the records I'm making are colder, December, desegregated, disintegrate, people are never gracious, emaciating, interpretation, my flow is a guillotine, I decapitate it, iregulate it, regurgitation of anything that I was creating, this procrastinator will stay sedated to mask my emotions filling up on a daily, and I couldn't give a f** if a record label paid me, I wanna make a connection to people that is real, give them food for their soul, something that you can feel
Imagine the pa**ion of packing a promise but what you are lacking is focus, please don't ever think about distractions and pay attention when a n***a rapping, it's all about the self-preservation, your effort to practice when its time for the lights camera action, lord
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