People think I'm happy In This so called heaven
I live in a world A world of depression
Mind is just racing Yeah hear the engine revving
My mind don't escape so my mind is compressing
You see but don't know My life is destressing
The world is cold Ain't nothing refreshing
Can't keep on going I got no progression
Like I just said My life is depressing
Need you in this life that I'm ending
Thanks to the heart That you are bending
My mind busy blending
My life that I live Is over extending
People will tell me My glare is offending
A minute that passes is a minute contending
Don't wonna show up So Im stuck not attending
My life goes down yeah keeps on decending
You say you love me Yeah you're good at pretending
I feel depression I am just mad
Built up agression makes me feel sad
Just a new session life is so bad
I used to feel love miss what I had
Miss what I had yeah miss when I was happy
Now I gotta deal this and the relapseing
Am I even your son did you even love me
Do I have a mum or were you just acting
I don't want you here I don't want you close
You messed up my head and I didn't even know
Don't apologise now please just go
Think it's best for both of us if you leave me alone
It's clear to see that you didn't want me around
I can't handle these thaught that are getting loud
All I wanted to do is make you proud
With this escape that I found
My friends and family are the reason I'm still here
I don't include my mum, who made me feel fear
You don't get the message I'm tryna make you hear
You do more bad then it's either change or don't come near
Yeah but you're the reason I'm holding on
The thaught of you changing but it's been too long
You're the reason that I wrote this song
I just wonna know what I did wrong
I feel depression I am just mad
Built up agression makes me feel sad
Just a new session life is so bad
I used to feel love miss what I had
Miss what I had yeah miss when I was happy
Now I gotta deal this and the relapseing
Am I even your son did you even love me
Do I have a mum or were you just acting