[Intro: Jhene Aiko]
What's up?
Been a minute since we kicked it, you've been caught up
With them b**hes, I don't get it, you're a star love
You shouldn't have to deal with that
I'd never make you feel like that
Cause...
[Hook: Jhene Aiko]
I love me, I love me enough for the both of us
That's why you trust me, I know you been through more than most of us
So what are you? What are you, what are you so afraid of?
Darling you, you give but you cannot take love
[Verse 1: James Logan]
Name an acquaintance I ain't influenced
I never contemplate the consequences of my selfish actions
Rapping this hoping I get a delayed reaction
Does this make me a bit obsessive
Cause I hate it when you're submissive
Pa**ive aggressive when we're texting
I feel the distance, I should have put that sh** in the past tense
Cause we haven't texted in weeks
And this is probably where my depression finally peaks
The sequence of events in our relationship always got me stressed
Loop this beat so I can let it speak
Hope our next communication is more than a squeak
Never want us to be strangers in the street
All this sh** on my mind got me lacking sleep
Tossin' and turnin' in the sheets
Your lack of effort to see me got me rapping different
Wrote that hope that it wouldn't sound too desperate
I wish you were still here, so I could simply say let's go to your beach house for the weekend
An escape from this mess, Dwelling on a vacation
That's just a quiet reflection on failed plans
I'm just an artist fighting starvation, I wanna show emotion but still keep it G
Lyrically I'll never be on the level of those I revere
Got me pondering if all our memories can be forgotten in a year
A year apart, funny how long that lasted
You'll probably claim nothing was the same, that's all part of the game
Who you settling for, who better for ya than the boy huh?
[Hook]
[Verse 2: James Logan]
The optimist inside me got me thinking there is a happy ending to all this
But the pessimist is saying this sh** is hopeless
I keep telling myself to have a little patience
But what if I'm a patient, and the only prescription is you
Wrote that, got me asking how I'm going to flow this
Cause you honestly just shattered all my confidence
Damn I need you to hear this
I said it once, but since it didn't resonate I'll say it here
It is dangerous when you're complacent, that sh** is contagious
I guess sensitivity is my only weakness
Maybe one day you'll realize what we could be
I'm afraid of my own insecurities
Everytime I see you now you just seem like a visitor
And I need you, I admit that, we're too similar
But I'm afraid I haven't changed enough
The distance got me worried if I'm sufficient enough
I contradict myself whenever I say it's never too late to learn from a past mistake
Because I told you once that we don't make mistakes
Just bad decisions, that hit a nerve or something
I'll always remember that day
Being at dinner and you telling me I'd never make it as a rapper
Wonder after hearing this if it changed your thought process
When you find out how I'm living, I just pray I'm forgiven
But what qualities was I looking for before, who you settling for, who better for ya than your boy?
[Hook]
[Verse 3: James Logan]
I was being honest when I said I haven't drank in months
But you probably won't believe that
I might stay lifted
f**ing with these other b**hes, but those feelings were never scripted
These decisions just a way to occupy my time
Don't hold it against me
I want my actions to speak louder than my words
That's why I sound subdued on this beat
When it's all said and done
I wanna out do Drake, in the booth with jak, maybe he's my 40
Just remember everyone who ever said a negative connotation
Let that be the motivation
That should take you to heights you never dreamed of
Fall in love with the music and let's just see where it takes us
I know you got it in you to pack arenas
And I'm here to help bring those ideas to fruition
Doing this sh** just to pay my tutition
This is a home invasion through your speaker set
So close to fame I can almost taste it
I just bodied this sh**, snippet for the album
Lil co*k is back