Kiara's Song
Hell On Earth
I wrote about my sister
And the other day some high schoolers call me Mr
Then I came home and stumbled across your picture
Man we getting old and our kids just getting bigger
I miss ya
Is your mommy wit ya
If she isnt
Tell her that its Ballin and I'd like to pay a visit
I know shes trying to do the right thing but this feels so wrong
It's only been a few months but it feels so long
Gotta stay busy
Hop on my hipstrumentals
This was Throwback Thursday
Nothing's coincidental
Heard Nas's' Daughter
Heard he wanted Em and Jay on it
Didn't happen, wonder what they'd say on it
Well Jay z's schedule was Crazy and stuff
And Em didn't do it cuz throughout his career
He talked about Hailey too much
I could only imagine what that's be like bet it'd k** him
Know it took a lot from him
But I feel him
Cuz every single time I start to spilling I'm like this is so stupid
Like why do I put myself through this?
I guess I'm a sacrifice for this Music
Hurts every time but by now I'm used to it
Wondering how tall you are
Reminiscing bout the garage
You and your moms would barge in
While I'm spitting over some bars
I kept saying one more time
And I told you nobody's perfect
Wild how a 6 year old could make you nervous
Your moms never wanted to bother
But I would tell her to bring ya
I always had plans of making you a famous singer
‘Member that happy birthday we recorded for your “alita
Played it for everybody then we partied at camilas
By the way
How she doing?
Tell her we taking Isa
You run in and grab her then we get some pizza
Sike
Though that be nice
Some Ice cream after slice
But Lilo's ain't been the same since they went for a lower price
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What's up little lady
Don't be shy
Everything's gonna be alright
Walking' wit ya mother's strut
When you're 18
I told her
She's gon have to hold ya
From the night
I know that I'm not there right now
And you don't know why
This is how I feel inside
It may seem a little crazy
You're not a baby
But I promise
Ballin's gon be iight
Now I'm at toys r us
Trying to invest this extra cash
But didn't know what to get
You growing up so fast
And if I showed up to your school with a bag
Your teacher tell your mom and shell probably get all mad
And that's sad
Cuz you'll never really know my love
A xbox kinect can't give you all my hugs
I tried to teach you how to multiply
And you was like boring got up and left to play outside
That was funny
Cuz I know you didn't want to hurt my feelings
I could see it on your face
You just much rather be chilling
Your mom was like that
A lot of time ill start preaching
She'll just stare into my eyes
Lord knows what she was thinking
We were young but we were crazy about each other
Hope throughout it all you could tell how much I really loved her
Your mommy wanted a place
And you wanted a little brother
I wanted to be a star
That meant being gone for the summer
But I'm glad I could contribute to something that you can cherish
Your little sister
Lil doggie named Paris
In my mind
I can see you playing fetch
‘Member never be afraid of whatever you trying to catch
I'm just trying to forget
Everything I regret
Like
When I let you see me smoke a cigarette
Wish I could erase it all
Everything that you saw
Me fighting with your ma
Jumping out of the car
I was going through some things
That we don't mention often
Sometimes you could be sick without coughing
Sounds weird but I'm sure glad it stopped
Get used to this, you gon' hear this a lot
One day when you're a lil older
Everything's changed
And this is all over (uh)
Maybe then you'd understand
Until then this is something you can jam
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