[Intro:]
These are my adderall thoughts
These are my adderall thoughts
[Verse 1:]
Afraid to write this sh** for a second time
Cause there's a whole lot of sh** going on in my mind
Nowadays I feel like I'm so close
Last sh** flopped
I went pop, okay, I know
Had to go and get that off my chest
It's okay, it's in the past now
I made mistakes but I'm cool with saying them out loud
I'm tired of fronting like I'm perfect when I know I'm not
People hate me and that make me insecure a lot
Thinking back, making sh** on my Mac
Never thought I'd be able to feed myself off Rap
Maybe that was fate
Maybe that was luck
But who give a f**
Cause I'm not the same kid that made wish me luck
I want this sh**
I need this sh**
Can't leave this sh**
I breathe this sh**
I'm doing this cause I believe in this sh**
That's the reason why I can't never quit
[Hook:]
These are my adderall thoughts
These are my adderall thoughts
[Verse 2:]
Remember being a freshman at wvu
Nobody ever thought my dream would really come true
But it did, now I'm touring the country all year
You never feel a rush
Like when you hear that crowd cheer
My biggest flaw is that I know I'm flawed
And I can't really figure out why people applaud
I guess the man in the mirror ain't the one on the screen
I mean the person portray isn't the one that I see
I'm tired of every girl I f**ed
Telling me bout every girl I've f**ed
Kinda make me think I'll never find love
Don't know if I lost the one
Cause she heard that song I wrote and hated who I become
Now it's 11:11 and I'm
Feeling bad for writing those rhymes
But that's what I get for letting my heart speak
And bleeding out all over these beats
[Hook:]
These are my adderall thoughts
These are my adderall thoughts
[verse 3:]
Haven't wrote a song in two months
My head's all f**ed up
Going through depression
That can happen to anyone
Too afraid to speak so I'm writing it down
Guess the fans are the therapist now
Got an email from my dad on Christmas
Don't even know how he got that sh** to begin with
Maybe that's what happens when you get a little fame and sh**
But how the f** you gonna leave a kid
Then hit him up
No harm, no foul
Where were you when me and mom were in that red brick house
Like you really think I need you now?
Me and my sis don't speak
I think I just remind her of him
Try to talk but I really don't know where to begin
Maybe I'm just selfish
Maybe I'm just scared
That I might die and nobody would really care
Maybe I'm fine
Maybe I'm just lost
Yeah
[Outro:]
These are my adderall thoughts
These are my adderall thoughts