Remember when I ruined your birthday?
I choke when I think of it now
and I just wanted to say that he wasn't me,
the me that was there, slept next to you as you wept.
Left in the morning and stared over the river,
thinking about what was next.
Next on my mind, next on my plate.
I ate you alive and what did you get?
Remember when we f**ed in the park?
I told you I was broken before you,
that you opened me up.
I was a dumb pup looking for a b**h to stitch my name into,
thought for a minute it was you.
We had a saying, still do.
'His heart's in the right place - oh wait.'
Remember when we first touched each other?
You picked me up from the train the first day.
It was like we never met, our eyes never set.
Held your hair in the shower, getting you wet.
Put my fist in your mouth first day that we met.
Slept in airports, ate sh** and came close to d**h.
We. Won't. Be. Happy.
Remember when you bought me a valentine?
I threw it back in your face, left you the next day.
Tell my friends what you say, no shame.
No cruelty, either, just a boy with a fever getting even.
Didn't know how to love, couldn't.
Didn't stick, it wouldn't.
He was is now what shouldn't,
and every new pair of eyes I see is you.
We. Won't. Be. Happy.
(every new set of eyes I see is you)
(his heart's in the right place)
(I ate you alive)
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[Ghost: I know what you're thinking of doing... and you shouldn't.]
Yeah.
[Ghost: Your job is to look after the past.]
Not like this. Not everything. It's not supposed to be this clear.