I wish my life made sense
Or, at least more than cents
So I could cop a house and afford to pay the rent
For every night that I got bent and thought it was the end
For the nights I can't remember with friends that I won't forget
I gotta say, it's all love from then until now
Guess I made it this far and I don't even know how
From nights I spent smoking, nights I spent drinking, nights I spent making this music, and just thinking
Went as fast as my blinking
Within a second, every girl I ever f**ed with taught me a lesson
Glad I stopped f**ing with y'all
sh**, I deserve better
Hope you find what you're looking for
I keep writing these letters to myself and never send them
Keeping breaking these hearts and never mend them
Just trying to make my own heaven in this hell on Earth
And really, for what it's worth
I deserve it after years of just settling with dirt
Here to sew the patches
I guess these things happen
My days are spent laughing
Slow, but surely pa**ing
Watching the time pa** me, without me
I'm not ready to move forward I'm still looking all around me
Wish I didn't need these d**
That help me think this way
Telling me, happiness lies within
It's needless to say
At a time like this, especially now
I just found a way in
And you're trying to throw me out
Let me chill, let me decide what is real
What I decide to feel
I'm just trying to know the dill
f** what is real, and what is fake
I don't partake in any actions that y'all make
I'm barely awake
The never ending cycle that got your world turning
Got your blunt burning with people I ain't concerned with
Man, I guess that I change
And my methods are strange ,but my life ain't sh** If I ain't making a name
Struggle to hold on to my past It wouldn't last
Just like my cash I ain't trying to spend it fast
But, at last I found my placement
I hear, but don't say sh**
So, I ain't trying to deal with all the poor lies of a fake b**h
And you can say I moved on by staying where I'm at
Spitting these raps, and never looking back
Got a whole future ahead of me
Advancing, cos they're letting me
Man, I'm tripping off nothing but, I'm loving everything
And what a sight to see
And it's hard to believe
That all this sh** was always there right in front of me, under me
Just waiting for me to get over it
No longer know what sober is just trying to hold on to a wrist
Busy writing lyrics
The truth, don't want to hear it
Time to open my eyes And hope that I can clear it all the way
I hope you hear what I say
Before all of the feelings fade and the songs no longer play
But, I'm here to stay until everybody leaves
I need my space, I'm just trying to breathe
And I finally accepted that I'll never get an explanation
No longer see the point in having conversations
[Outro]
Cry, laugh, smile
You deserve that
Just smile
You deserve that
f** the bullsh**
Just smile
You deserve that
You deserve that