At work my mom had called me with some unreal news
It seems the nurse had called her earlier the facts were all confused
But the point of conversation had revolved around you
If you won't ask me for help yourself of course I'm gona refuse
See I don't know you anymore, I won't walk in your shoes
I cannot sing your blues, I will not drink your booze
And you don't know me anymore, you never even knew
You missed as I grew, you ditched what I been through
On the phone your voice was never there I even called your friends
To let you know that you would have to be the one to try to make amends
As I recite this, I know that there will never be and end
I've never really cared too much before, but things can change within
I may pretend you meant nothing i've inherited your lier
Engraved within my memory you sitting on that chair
What did I do? Why am I so perfect? How about Andy?
He's a b**h just like your mother, here Chris go buy some candy
And thats f**ed up. f** you. Die too
Only momma knows why she had stood so long there beside you
There on that chair, glaring at us like only you can
Staring, flaring nostrils like the cape of a villain
As a child I remember floor lamps brown stripes
Open packs of cigarettes and back seats to dodge vans
Visiting apartments with your hiding girlfriends
Mom and Andy crying too much and me with them
Old enough to an*lyze now and thinking awfully hard
It seems to me a wife and two sons ain't easy to discard
You came back at night to start fights and mom had stood her guard
Six foot seven with a piece of wood from the yard
I faked sleep, take deep breaths, you disappeared
After one year zero just a pillow full of mother tears
Oh yeah, I didn't know it at the time but that b**h you left
Had barely kept the house and was now drowning within your debt
I don't pretend to hate my dad
I don't pretend to like him
When I think about what I just heard I wish that I could fight him
Why would you call me seven years without something?
You f**ing, drunk don't ever call again thanks for nothing
If you liked us all along then you must be dumb as hell
Vision clouded by the whiskey you were picking from the well
You watched TV ignoring me who cares you might as well
I hope one day you wake up and find yourself in hell
I don't pretend to hate my dad
I don't pretend to like him
When I think about what I just heard I wish that I could fight him
Why would you call me seven years without something?
You f**ing drunk, don't ever call again thanks for nothing
If you liked us all along then you must be dumb as hell
Vision clouded by the whiskey you were drinking from the well
You watched TV ignoring me who cares you might as well
I hope one day you wake up and find yourself in hell