Verse 1
For the past two years, I've been so silent
Tryna fight with every negative thought
Me against myself, the hardest fight I've ever fought
Moment of truth, I apologize
For misleading you all
Against all odds, I faked it tryna walk tall
No one to turn to, Friends of fam?
Not even God was the one to call
Wish to be like the varsity fees,
get up and never fall
Self esteem crushed, no one believed in me
These walls carved in, can anybody hear me?
I started questioning religion
Is he real? Is he fake? Can he hear me?
My mind never rested,
Busier than the Monday morning trafic
I started slacking in my studies,
f** that sh** was tragic
Started smoking weed tryna forget about this pain
At the same time it f**ed up with my brain
I couldn't keep up with it,
So I vented to my homiie N2kay
Hook
Like A caterpillar to a bu*terfly, boy I had to change
Friends to enemies real quick, damn it feels so strange X2
Feels so strange, damn it feels so strange
Feels so strange
Who would stay the same in this f**ed up world.
Verse 2
Look at the sh** that I've been through,
I survived by God's Grace
It's my own life, so imma run it at my own pace
Forget hoes, my dream is the only thing I'm tryna chase
I've changed, there are few chapters that I had to erase
I'm here tryna create a better life for my momma,
So imma get that degree
Life ain't no sunshine and rainbow boy,
I have to agree
But mom, it's what you make of it,
It's how you decide to live it
My sister just turned 16,
man, I just can't believe it
I Freed myself from depression, sadness and anxiety
Plus I'm no longer a slave to society
Hazard The-Illmatic look around you boy,
They don't love you in this cold world
Fake smiles, they don't love you in this cold world (in this cold world)
They don't love you in this cold world (in this cold world)
Hook
Like A caterpillar to a bu*terfly, boy I had to change
Friends to enemies real quick, damn it feels so strange X2
Feels so strange, damn it feels so strange
Feels so strange
Who would stay the same in this f**ed up world