I'm drowning in my thoughts
No matter what i do they don't stop
I try to swim to the surface but i'm cursed with this curse
And i won't reach the top
Self doubt, i got a lot
It doesn't tell me good job
It just tells me everything i'm not
I'm drowning in my thoughts (drowning)
No turning back
Happiness, what's that?
I kinda forgot
I hear my emotions talk
They're teaming up against me
I know for a fact none of them are friendly
They tell me that i should envy
Everyone who's better than me
I don't know why
They do this inside
But i can't escape
If i keep going at this rate
I start shouting
It doesn't makе a sound in
In the water that's surrounding
Me, i can't еscape, i'm drowning
I'm drowning in my thoughts (my thoughts)
No matter what i do they don't stop (don't stop)
I try to swim to the surface but i'm cursed with this curse
And i won't reach the top (the top)
Self doubt, i got a lot (a lot)
It doesn't tell me good job (good job)
It just tells me everything i'm not (i'm not)
I'm drowning in my thoughts (drowning)
Maybe if i take it at a slow pace
Then there might be a chance everything will be okay
But i have my doubts, and there's no stopping them
Under the pressure, running out of oxygen
They tell me i'm not good enough
I feel stuck, should i give up?
I'm running out of luck
When it's all gone then what
Happens? no idea
I got faith, but i might need a
Object, for flotation
I got motivation, but i'm drowning
I'm drowning in my thoughts
No matter what i do they don't stop
I try to swim to the surface but i'm cursed with this curse
And i won't reach the top
Self doubt, i got a lot
It doesn't tell me good job
It just tells me everything i'm not
Yeah, i'm drowning in my thoughts
I'm cursed with this curse
Every day it just keeps getting worse
Can't say a word
I think to myself, "when will i learn?"
How to survive
And not always feel deprived
Of everything that's good in life
I'm drowning, but i never die
Will i ever find joy again?
Will the suffering ever end?
Will my thoughts ever be my friend?
Well i don't think they ever can
Unless i fix it by myself
Will i go to heaven? or go to hell?
And without some help from myself
I can never escape this cell