God's been waiting for way too long
But I'm so far away, I'm just way too gone
Why the devil's threshold gotta be so strong
It's mackavel I'm just lost in my ways
Lost amongst men who just tryna get paid
Sleeping with different women who just tryna get laid
Dancing in the yard where devils come lay
I walked into the life, Im just tryna get play
I know theres truth in the light, but I reside in the shade
I keep pride by my side, I can't carry no shame
Life 's a short game, Im still learning to play
The bible my manual but id rather my way
Cause it feels so good to be so weak
And it feels so good to flirt with the freaks
Screw a hoe every week , get my perks in the street
Mom prays against the day that I get burnt with the heat
But I tell her Im safe, I feel apart of the streets
If anybody's with a gun, it'll prolly be me
I'm just an enslaved n***a just trying to be free
Mentally in a cage, but Im portrayed to be free
The generation is blind, they can't even see
The world around them and what happens to be
The new customs that we adapt naturally
Taboos now traditions whats happening B
As I conform to the world gradually
Everyday I rest my head demons battling me
Tryna make haste for God, sins tackling me
Making me turn away, shame grappling me
My heart full of mistakes, sh** snapping at me
Anticipating the day, my foes clapping at me
Waiting upon my fall, just laughing at me
I turn the corner at night, lights flashing at me
Cops asking a n***a where he happen to be
Why the bag on your back whatchu carrying b
Hands behind your back, you coming with me
See I've been shy for way too long
I've been way from God for way to long
Cause the devil's threshold is just way too strong
He makes the right thing just feel so wrong
I've been inside my flesh for way too long
God's been waiting on me for way too long
But I'm so far away, I'm just way too gone
Why the devil's threshold gotta be so strong
d**h lingers in the back of my mind
Waiting for the day that its finally time
Everybody has theirs im just waitin on
Mine
Thinking I couldn't die like I was one of a kind
But d**hs here on my trail and its sending me signs
So I hide in the dark as I never open the blinds
So I never have to see my d**h in the shine
Hoping it doesn't beat me as Im here on my grind
Hoping it doesn't greet me as Im writing these lines
Praying it doesn't meet me at the divine
God Grabs me by the heart and our souls intertwine
Living life on the ropes, I act like I'm fine
d**hs keeping me mute so I act like a mine
Waiting on the day my life plays a rewind
Will I die by old age or get hit with the nine
Im just waiting on the day I get some peace in my mind