[Verse 1:]
Sometimes I feel like Moses man I just want to run to Midian
just to change my state but not the state where my city's in
but my state of mind
look for a sign like Gideon
cause my faith is wavering I'm forsaking dependence again
you took me from Egypt just to make me a leader
but like Moses I'm not an eloquent speaker
I'm not eloquent either
not before nor after you've spoken
me in ministry you've gotta be jokin'
I feel like Jeremiah
here are my bones Lord and here is my fire
I'm inadequate to represent the messiah
call me the weepin' rapper
I read a chapter then I'm heapin' up laughter
because I'm weak and I can see the disaster of me in ministry
I feel Job I curse the day of my birth
since I was born its only payin' me hurt
my insecurities worse
sometimes I wish that that night was barren
either that or Lord send me an Aaron
[Verse 2:]
This song is for you my sisters and brothers who strugglin' with depression
not just the blues but a struggle with depression
maybe it's clinical and got you taking medicine
or maybe not but you taking counseling session and
that's excellent
take your medicine
if you need it cause this is pleasin' to Jesus
I write this song for the schizophrenic
who only gets left alone and throne in a hospital only to panic
and whose family doesn't understand
so they treat you like an animal but never would the Son of Man
for those who ask what's going inside of me
who feels bound by fear bound by anxiety
I write to you because I know the
very God who's in control of bipolar
I write to those who wrestle with thoughts of suicide
don't do it cause Jesus loves you for you He died
[Hook:]
For every tear that you cry for all of the wars in your mind and the fears that you hide know that He's there know that He's walking with you I know that it's hard to press on when the nights seem so long remember His word is your hope so know that He cares know that He's walking with you
[Verse 3:]
The core problem is that Adam sinned
and since then to now its 8 out of 10
women and men and children who struggle with depression
especially house wives and preachers they're people who struggle with depression
I write this song for that introverted
insecure person that's training his thoughts into thinking he's worthless
God made you
God can save you
in everything you can give Him worship
you're not worthless
Lord I pray for the mentally ill
that in your ministry you mentally heal
those who suffer with it
if not now then you eventually will heal your children that are mentally ill
for now they suffer with it
give us the strength just deal with your will
because we sinners and we wrestle with it
just like Job did it
I write this song for those who were s**ually abused
lookin' for weaponry to use seek Jesus
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