[Verse 1]
Numb, lacking self-respect and sneaking ever closer
Push, over and over
Way out a one-way street
Doing me, speaking my piece
Boxed in, cards dealt, dad issues
Yes, got a lot of issues
On the pedestal put too many men
A good half meant Thinky Pain
Ever needy seeking for approval
So the dreaming outgrew the bubble
Fear, tears, feels betrayed
Off balance, quickly swayed
Hungry heart, the cake is a lie
Feeding off the wrong supply
Bubble gone, moment tapped
Wired brain changed itself
[Hook]
From here, I wish to travel to the past of me
Being big to the little him, that was me
He'd be asked of me, would you walk with me
Let us chat some brotherly talk in here
Spotting plenty ego layers of indifference
And preventing from being a better him
His turn to be making moves
He'll know that he can, will and could
[Verse 2]
Ever had suicide thoughts
Good god, over and over
Neck on train tracks wheels roll over
Helped me back grounding myself
Daydreams trumping d**h
Forward 3 and two steps back
No means to explore lows
Read the signals just to make sure
No particular reason that I know of
Wicked love, low self-worth
With my mind tricked to possible exit
Long-term sounds so dumb like Brexit
Ego-building walls off May-Day
Medication here goes a long way
And I wouldn't call that at all a high-way
It's a more Road Not Taken-way
[Hook]
From here, I wish to travel to the past of me
Being the big to the little him, that was me
He'd be asked of me, would you walk with me
Chat brotherly talk in here
Plenty ego layers of indifference
Preventing him from being a better him
His turn to be making moves
He'll know that he can or will do
[Verse 3]
Love is giving someone the power to destroy you
But trusting them not to
I think it's some bad sh**, you know, having just the absence
But I get it; there is a grain of truth in it
Destroying means to hate the best that you can be
Trust means the values are aligned
On the same page sort of alike but
It really doesn't touch me
Integrity is something that won't come from a read
And I read a lot or at least I try
And when the time is right, I apply
So I chill for the moment
Savour life, cause I own it
Earned it, gotta get better
[Outro]
The whole's bigger than its part, better him
Apologises cause he saw, better him
Have the courage stepping up, better him
Waiting for his time, better him
Seizes the moment, better him
Cries regardless cause he owns it, better him
Respects his struggles with his frenemies
Sad for losses that will get to him, better him