[Intro]
I wrote this song on August 11th, 2015
My seventeenth birthday
At that point I had been rapping seriously for about a year
Throughout that summer I wrote a bunch of songs before anybody even knew about me rapping, and made them into an album named The Proof
I never recorded any of the songs I had intended to put on that album, and I don't think I ever will
This is the only one
I completely remade The Proof, and now I'm sharing this with you all..
One year later
[Verse 1]
I was rappin back in ‘06, oh sh**
Thought he wasn't contagious, but his raps sound so sick
Caught in hypnosis, how does he do it?
Well it's simple really, I am just lyrically fluent
You're caught in beginner cla**, say I'm getting beginner a**
But when Kim Kardash' wanna do it
You're starting to think you blew it
Knew it would happen this way
Ever since way back when I was in a car seat in the back
Listening to Eminem and Dre
I used to practice Lose Yourself before school
Before I thought it was cool
Man I just wanted to do what Eminem and them do
I even had a friend too that rapped the verses against me
At only eight years old I left him messy like mince meat
You couldn't convince me that I'd be here today
sh** I just heard a brand new album from Dr. Dre
All I want is for a lot of people to hear my tape
And have 'em hand it back to me like “that sh** was great”
But hey
We came a long way from where we started
Even though I moved from in a house into an apartment
Even though I lost a few friends, yeah they departed
I still got plenty of them with me and they're going to be a part of it all
[Chorus]
So don't get involved unless you're willing to fall and be a part of it all
And if you're planning to turn your back on me please don't throw me parties at all
[Verse 2]
Ethan Harrington, never really been arrogant
Listening to my parent's hate, lyrics sink in and marinate
She say I should be humble, they showing me what that gun do
If I don't show 'em I murder mics, man this game is a jungle
But f** 'em, I know I'm not the best, I know I'm not from the west
I know I shouldn't call Compton, I'm getting sh** off my chest
While I'm sitting in this house, chilling, playing some Xbox
I'm usually spitting rhymes out my mouth, claiming I get box
But right now I'm not, I'm thinking about the girl I lost
And if I'm writing it down, I'm writing it down with chalk
No I'm not using no paint so I don't need any smock
And if it ever rained down, my tears gonna wash it off
I'm feeling new pain now, wonder if fear gon' take control
Or maybe it has, wonder if I'll ever hear from God
Maybe I'm wrong, maybe I'm meant to feel lost
Maybe I am not ready yet so this is meant to take long
Still, I feel ill
And you could take that physically or a metaphor for my sk**
I say I'm keeping it real
But who defines the word real, is it going in for the k**?
Or is it taking care of a woman? I don't even know the deal
I just tell everyone I'm real because that's really how I feel
And if my feelings ever change, go 'head and pop another pill, refill
God dammit, I'm ready to murder every rapper on this planet
I feel I'm deserving this to happen, no advantage
'Cause my skin color is white, it makes it hard for me to manage
My way into the hip hop scene, it may be different if I was Spanish
People say they could market me better if my blood was part Hispanic
[Chorus]
[Verse 3]
Seventeen year old, best from Melrose who ever did it
Three and a half minutes and still just cannot quit it
This rap is like a drug
Even though right now I'm above the influence
I feel I'm high in the sky, flying with doves
I've been trying to love, keep my words filled with peace
But when push come to shove, I won't leave your body in piece
I'ma say goodbye to you peas, you all are smaller than I
I don't care about your b**hes, dick you can swallow and die
I'ma reach for the stars, you better bet that I'll get 'em
Plant both my feet while on Mars, I'll sit and watch armageddon
My futures seemin' like I'll have b**hes screamin' for different reasons
But most of all they know I am the one and only Ethan
Girls from my past weepin', asking why they'd ever leave him
Tryna hit him up once they seen him, but they didn't know he was sweepin' them up
So they go drink another cup of Ciroc and it's costing them bucks
So they go and reach out to him for some help but I don't give a f**
Nah I don't give a f**
This hasn't happened yet, but I know what will come with fame
I'm just giving you warning before the world know my name
And if I fall you fall, man if you truly with me, when I rise, you stand tall
Nah I'm not saying if you're a good friend you can ball with me
I'm just saying that those that will be there have been calling me
Since before they knew I was rapping
Since before they knew that any of this sh** would happen
Since way back when I needed someone to talk to and they were always there
Only a few coming with me, I hope that I've made it clear
[Outro]
Just let the beat run out
Ethan Harrington
Thank you
Proof!