[Verse 1: Emanuel X]
Gotta Stop treatin
These hoes like wifey/
They don't love me they love
The IDEA of a n***a like me/
The girls where im
From have all Lost their appeal /
So i Fly girls to my city to
Find Somethin I can feel/
I wake up next to models who tell
Me last night I came on too strong/
But I know she still loves her ex so she'll put the blame on me only cuz she feels that she's done him wrong/
(Mmm)
They can't live with that guilt
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That's just not how their built
See, My focus
Was Ladies/
And I was tryna swim in p**y
Like rivers, Euphrates/
For as deep as I love myself
Is as deep as they'll hate me/
The more the world paid me
Played me and made it harder
To save me/
Highway to Heaven
In A Mercedes/
Cuz money streams only
Made me drown in my vices/
And my stubbornness only
Left My family adviceless/
The boy who loses the most
Turns into the man who's wisest/
So I never questioned where
Christ Is in the midst of this crisis/
I bought you those window seats Girl you better get yo pretty a** up on that plane/
She told me she wanted to f** and the only thing she knew of me
Was my name/
[Chorus: Emanuel X]
I am so tired of feeling alone/
I do not know what the f** to
Call home/
It's been 23 years where the f**
.../
Excuse me right now b**h
I'm just in my zone/
[Verse 2: Emanuel X]
Naked b**hes all up
In my f**ing phone/
Never asked she sent
Them on her own/
Ever have a model strip for you
With a view of ya city in the back/
No? so don't tell
Me how to act/
My mind packed but my
Tongue flows in conversation/
Why she ain't ask If I had
Kids, with no hesitation/
She said your pa**ion for
What you love bleeds through/
So if you did that's something I would've known about you/
That sh** right there made
Me feel like a f**ing man/
And 'till a woman values your
Pa**ion you'll never understand/
Built my lessons on women from their common actions and tendencies/
So when I catch their lies
They don't see the ammo
They're lending me/
Establishing relationships
That don't ever stay/
So when they fly home they Leave with a "why you live so far away?"/
I tell them I won't forget
Them Only to be kind/
Because you might be on my
Dick but you not on my mind/
I am so tired of girls Who lost potential only to end up an ex/
Cuz that pain stays deep in my heart and I just put the pain from the past on my next/
[Chorus: Emanuel X]
I am so tired of
Feeling Alone/
I do not know what the
f** to call home/
It's been 23 years
Where the f** .../
Excuse me right now b**h
I'm just in my zone/
[Verse 3: Emanuel X]
I hate seeing pretty b**hes
That we grew up wiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiith
Get bagged by average n***as
And fall off/
And f** all them n***as you
With, they all soft/
So I got models in
My downtown hall loft/
Well not my loft, I just
Made reservations/
You got Netflix and chill
I forward flight confirmations/
I like options and women
Are My addiction/
Coulda been d**, alcohol
Or poppin prescriptions/
Love her body But not
Her influenced decisions/
So it's easy to read Her mind
In regards of her intentions/
The night sky Over the city
And her silhouette/
All lust does is k** you
Slowly Like a cigarette/
We get what we
Feel we Deserve/
So when I see you with a lame
I stay silent and reserved/
Cuz that either says you
Don't think highly of yourself/
Or you not in it for love and
Only the appearance of wealth/
I am not naive I know that once
You leave we probably won't speak again/
Cuz it's not realistic to live that far away and remain only as friends/
The beautiful ones always
End up so lonely/
You know what I want girl
I got enough homies/
You love to talk it
But girl you gotta show me/
I ain't got the time to try to
Take This slowly/
The things women do to try
To get to know me/
None of these b**hes out
Here can control me/
I'm in pain and None of
This sh** can console me/
I'm lonely and this sh**
Is k**in me slowly/
I'm talkin to you b**h
I need you to hold me/
f** feelings my chain
Icy like hockey goalies/
f** feelings my chain
Icy like hockey goalies/
f** all those dreams
That you sold me/
f** the old me dumb
b**h This is the cold me/