[Hook]
I can't take it
Not trynna fake it
Now that I made it
This is a nightmare
Not much to go on
Just trynna hold on
Gotta get a hold on
My life's a nightmare
[Verse 1]
Wake up, 2 a.m., cold sweat
What happened to the boy who would never forget?
He sold out, everything went to his head
Now he's got a bunch of gold on, laying in his bed
And he traded his friends for thousands of fans
A thousand dollar pair of shoes replaced his vans
And he used to fall asleep dreamin' 'bout the day
That magical someday is now his curse every day
Every day he walks around and everybody knows his name
He sees the flashing lights, livin' big, its so insane
But his family, still lives the exact same
And his friends, never saw a dime of his fame
So what's the point, why am I even here?
Wasn't that the entire purpose of my career?
To benefit them, bring em all up with me
Now it looks like my dream is deader than Whitney
Houston, Texas, sold out. Rahh
Summer home in Cancún when its cold out. Ahhh
Said the fire in my heart would never go out. Nahh
But attention was the devil that would blow it out. Ahhh
The money stayed with me, and the spotlight too
Neglected my support, then I dropped right through
I come home for birthdays and holiday visits
But I guess a nightmare's a dream too, isn't it?
[Hook]
I can't take it
Not trynna fake it
Now that I made it
This is a nightmare
Not much to go on
Just trynna hold on
Gotta get a hold on
My life's a nightmare
[Verse 2]
I lost my aunt and her baby to the same damn bullet
Mama's a nurse and daddy's preachin' from the pulpit
I never could have asked for more perfect parents
But I know they deserve better, God, It's not fair, it's
The reason why I'm here. The reason I do this
Got a few real friends, ain't one of 'em Judas
And I ain't no messiah, but my purpose is higher
Cuz I'm a blonde freak, A.D.D., heart on fire
And I could never get tired of being me
Call me John Cena; Hustle, Respect, and Loyalty
The Team on my back to the T-O-P
And this has been my dream, how many years? 13
So how could I even think about changing
Knowing when I look up, they'll be looking down angry?
Judge all you want, it'll never phase me
Cuz I'm more than happy staying the same me
[Hook]
I can't take it
Not trynna fake it
Now that I made it
This is a nightmare
Not much to go on
Just trynna hold on
Gotta get a hold on
My life's a nightmare
[Hook]
I can't take it
Not trynna fake it
Now that I made it
This is a nightmare
Not much to go on
Just trynna hold on
Gotta get a hold on
My life's a nightmare