(INTRO)
Yeah
You know I gotta give you that though provoking sh** for the ghetto man
Its gonna really f** you up on this one
You ain't from the hood I don't think you can feel this one
(VERSE 1)
Yo look
Everything that I've been through man its all pain
I've been lied to all my life its all game
I'm looking for a change but everything is the same
I'm in sane and this pain is just k**ing my brain
I'm alone in my room, that's more time to think
I'm alone and I'm stressed that's more time to drink
Can't sleep eyes open no time to blink
Tears coming down my face, heart's starting to sink
Its like my life's in the gutter
I don't feel myself
I'm real with everybody around but not myself
I flip out wanna grab a pound and hurt myself
But god won't open the gates if I murk myself
I'm at war with myself and I can't make peace
I'm emotional stress can't eat feel weak
I break down and cry wanna live in the sky
Physically I'm alive mentally I just died
(VERSE 2)
Yo
My best friend that I grew up with
Same age difference is he grew up quick
From the stat we was on the same path than you drifted apart
You had a change in your heart
I was calm and cool you was rallying loud
You let peer pressure blend you in with the wrong crowd
Started on the block slinging bullets were banging
Next thing you know you pa**ed and my life styles changing
I'm sorry I ain't go to the funeral service
You must think up in heaven kid worthless
Sorry I ain't visit your grandma
I'm sorry I ain't visit your grandpa
Its too much pain
I wanna go know but its too much shame
Just to look at their face man what'd they say
I shed tears for you, eventhough that you're gone I just wanna say your best friends here for you
(VERSE 3)
I keep on in the chamber just to calm my anger
Im my own enemy, how I'm a run from danger
Im looking in the mirror and im seeing a stranger
Life crashing down just like a bad game of jenga
Im more depressed than Kurt Kobain
Wanna sniff c**aine
Yo my life is a shame
A wild animal dog I can't be tamed
My f** ups my fault no one else to blame
Im lying in controllably crying uncontrollably
Pain enside how the f** you suppose to see
People don't understand n***as that close to me
Maybe cause I keep a straight face like pokabee
sh** wasn't supposed to be like this holding me down
Now I let the demons take control of me
I feel what you can't feel
See what you can't see
On to the boom pull the trigger I'm pain free