[Intro]
[Verse 1: Dams]
Dear you, cause it's so hard to say your name
Cause all it does is remind me of all the pain
All the stressing, heartbreaking, stupid mistakes I made
Now I'm lying in this bed, worried we'll never be the same
Remembering all the good times that we really had
Hoping you could see how much they outweigh the bad
I know the sh** I said hurt you, I know that it made ya mad
Even switched my style up, how this girl got me wearing plaid? Heh
Remember when we first started, all of my first words
I could never forget that date - June 3rd
Never thought I'd fall so deeply, to me it never occurred
And I knew for sure
That it was you I never wanna hurt
Told you I was lucky to talk to a girl like you
Started speaking your gibberish and from then I knew
The defenses I threw up, as the feelings for you grew
Scary feelings in my heart, this angel I would pursue
Remember the times, that movie night you can't forget
But now it's like you're just a shadow, a lost silhouette
And I sit with hands on my head, tears in my face, heart full of regret
Owe you too many apologies, my heart is so in debt
If I was really done, I would have been on the move
I wouldn't be sitting here, crying up in this booth
I would've gave up, not here spilling all of the truth
I wouldn't even be here writing this whole song for you
Now listen
I ain't making excuses cause what was said was said
All I'm telling you is what was said was never meant
I'm trying to get you to believe, I'm here trying to circumvent
The heart hardly beats slow composed of all the torment
Not a chance in my life I can go back to that day
Hell, even just to remember is enough for me to say
Give all of my damn power just to make it all okay
The cards are all on the table, the risks are all out laid
I wish I never took the drink, I wish I never took the shot
To get you to truly see, I'm prepared to give everything I got
You woke up, clearly remembered a lot
The love I'm sending ain't making it through, there's something you forgot
You came to me in your room that night after you left
I sat next to you, I let out the longest, deep breath
Staring into your eyes, yeah, the moment was so intense
My eyes watered up, all the feelings were so expressed
I said I was sorry, I even repeated it nonstop
You told me "It's okay, we're good," from there I thought it was all dropped
Gazing into a star, sunlight, my heart stops
I told you that I loved you, were quiet, was all shocked
I knew it was true, only felt that way once before
My feelings were sincere, no denying it, I'm sure
It took a while for me to see, when you walked out the door
Right there I knew, I couldn't hold it in anymore
So I told you, now I beg for you to stay
The whole situation has been on my mind everyday
The future was looking dark, outcomes were looking grey
Fact of the matter is, your heart is what I betrayed
And now I say
Still the reason for my smile, still are the highlights
Felt I should tell you the truth, waited 'til the time's right
Your beauty shines in the sun, no Twilight
I spell your name in the sky, now that's a skylight
And trust me, I really knew you cared
The problem was, my dumb a** was really scared
And so I pushed you away, the feelings were so impaired
Needed repair
Wasn't prepared
Ain't no other girl compared
Pushed you to the side, moving along here and there
And so I write you this letter, I'm sitting writing you this song
I'm hoping you could forgive me for every one of my wrongs
Who would have thought it would wind up feeling this damn strong
Had a hard time believing, up until you came along
Believe me, I promise you, I'm being so sincere
One promise was kept, as you can see, I'm still here
Never wanna lose a girl I hold in my heart so dear
No more fear
No more tears
I need my conscience really cleared
I hope now you understand what I'm saying is true
How sorry I am for everything that I put your heart through
Suppose there is nothing but one more thing for me to do
Sincerely yours, Damien, P.S. I love you