This life can take the soul out a n***a
Way before the Lord take the soul out your figure
I ain't even talking about a Saint turned sinner
But lately all these loses I been coppin got me bitter
I Lost my grandpapa last year and I miss him
He never got to see the job that limited my visits, I should've called
Damnit I should've called
For all that he knows I was struggling musician
I don't believe in superstitions or the tricks of a magician
But when Im making beats in solitude I hear a whisper
Dwan, please don't take yo time for granted
Stop sweating the small things
And make them easy to manage
But see sometimes I get panic attacks
And I hyper ventilate till I almost collapse
I try to take a walk but then my thoughts go manic
And don't tell me to smoke weed cuz that's increases the panic
After his funeral I listened to Curren$y, Sade
Jill Scott and Kendrick Lamar
I even sent a text to Mr. Kendrick Lamar and
I thanked him for the music that he pen'd from his heart
He said 'sorry for your loss, but bro keep strong, you got a heavenly advantage with your papa in the stars……'
I was a zombie for the following the weeks
A workaholic roaming in a hallway of beats
Looking for love on a one way street
I thank God for anybody that gave me something to eat
If it wasn't for my girlfriend, friends, or my mama
I'd be lost up in this whirlwind of drama
And I see ya'll on my timeline talking about Obama
Like if you was in the office you could solve every problem
Occupying sh**, ya'll occupying nada but them damn Concords
For your Facebook albums
When I wrote Sinbad I was broke as Noa's Jason mask
Turned my insecurities to everybody's favorite laugh
Ha, but that laughing stop when video drop and I took cheez-it bath
Naw n***a, don't ask me sh**
Don't ask me to explain you just see it Black and White
They said my video look like 'Yonkers'
Man yall n***as bonkers……or maybe you dont see the sacrifice
My vision goes blurry at the computer at night
But I type & I type till that sh** looks right
You think my campaign a scream for attention?
I dream to rock a stage where Hip Hop is 1 religion
A ploy just to annoy Murs twitter for a mention?
You n***as trippin
This is my callin, this my destiny
This my therapy like Grandpop here with me
I hope he seeing me and smiling proudly
And playing Dominoes with Brezell Allen…