[Hook]
And why do I feel like this?
And why am I so lifeless?
And why do I focus on darkness
Instead of on the brightness?
And why am I pessimistic?
And why am I so sadistic?
And why don't they just listen?
I guess we'll never know
[Verse]
b**h, I'm tired of feeling so tired
Got a lot of things on my mind
Got a lot of things on my plate
I'm not feelin' great, and I don't got time
When I prove these people all wrong
When I prove this sh** to you, ma
I'm not wastin' all of my time
I face it but I'm tryna do what I love
I just wanted to make you feel proud
Never want you to feel disappointed
I'm so focused, I want it, I need it, I'll get it
Just hoping that you will support it
Never wanted to cause you this pain
I just wanted for you to be happy
But that means that I will start going insane
If I can not follow the dreams in my brain
My teacher's and my peers think I won't amount to nothin'
I'ma go on keep on workin' til I show 'em I be somethin'
I be stunnin', give a f** about what you just had to say
Give a f** about what you just had to say
And for those who don't believe me
Promise you are gonna see me
On the TV doing things I always said I'd f**in' do
I just wanna leave a mark and show 'em all what I can do
But I love it when they doubt me
Cause I've got so much to prove, yeah
I just feel tired of letting you down
I just wanna make you feel proud
I just wanna make it and give you the world
And treat you the way you deserve
I couldn't have done this without you
All these things that you did for me
Visibly, taught me to always be true
To know what I'm worth and to never lose dignity
Never been lookin' for sympathy
Never want no one to pity me
Just hope that people be feeling me
Trust myself and my abilities
Workin' it, workin' it, workin' consistently
Promise you I will not end up a failure
I got way too much pa**ion and hunger
Was younger, still knew I wanted a million
Travel to Cali, New York, and Australia
What do you want?
What else could you want from me?
What else could I possibly do for you, prove to you?
You don't understand
The concept is new to you
But it's not new to me
You gotta believe in me
See what I see in me
Trust in myself
Cause I made this possible
Not nobody else
[Hook]
And why do I feel like this?
And why am I so lifeless?
And why do I focus on darkness
Instead of on the brightness?
And why am I pessimistic?
And why am I so sadistic?
And why don't they just listen?
I guess we'll never know