Sigh...you know....never mind. Never mind
There are too many things on my mind I need to vent
Before I get overheated and my love starts to bend
I pray to the most high to keep a close eye
Because whatever he lends me he can sure take away
Stakes get higher everyday, and I do reap what I sow
But I know he knows the many times I blew away
The moments to be faithful and humble
Take baby steps and I still stumble
The cookie crumbles but I didn't place my hand In the jar that far
Make my heart like unto you O Lord
If happiness isn't on earth why did youeven open the door for?
I only question to make my faith endure
Only suffer to make my mind chaste and pure
I'm grateful for all the blessing I wrought
All the food for thought, and that beautiful fish I caught
I swear God she can be the one
She brought me back whenever I wanted to run
She gave me something outside myself to love
But the downside is all the temptations and irritations
That on a daily basis basically have me beat
Lusting for others result in stained sheets….Damn
Yes daily I struggle with the test and guilt
But what keeps me going is what me and my girl built
We built a castle to run from the ha**le of life
She's my capsule, my spare axle in this road filled with strife
In just four months I fantasize her as my wife
But before the gift one must go through much patience
Her fragrance engraved in my nostrils, these agents of Satan
Keep me hostile. Jealousy and envy get the best of me
Forgetting the many times she said she'd die before she'd cheat on me
So what's with the insecurities? Now her male friends I see them as enemies
Now I wonder how I can even sleep peacefully
While the love of my dreams can't even sleep with her condition
Never did anything wrong to me nor deceitfully
The real problem rests with me
Maybe I need to learn to more love me more
Maybe God….Maybe you can keep this door open?
I'm hoping I can cope with these things
Even though love still stings, I will do
My best to love her till the end
I see her not only as my love but my friend
She gave me so much hope in my times of darkness
And even though my heart hardened she held my hand
With compa**ion, I hate clashing, I don't want a coliseum
I want Eden, if one falls we both fall. Even Steven
I love when I show her off to you spiteful cretins
What we have is something most k**
It's nothing physical but more about faith and will
Love is a feast we both had our fill
Got a girl that will love to even if even if im down to my last bill
And yes God we both virgins we never had s**
The thoughts are mental and it's all a mess
I'm just anticipating her next text...(phone rings)