[Verse 1]
An old wise man used to say to me don't play with smoke and mirrors
You might see something you weren't ready to see
Or worse you might start to believe that you're actually here
She was 19 when she came to me
And offered her apple in exchange for my smile
I would soon fall into her world with my head over heels,
Never again to stand on solid ground
They called her crazy, we called their bluff,
And we vowed each other sh** we didn't know the meaning of
She was my dream girl, I was her drunk
And we were two young, dumb, compulsive, loaded guns in love
People show you their past by how they walk when there's wind
They show you their history by how close their bones are to their skin
She learned to be ashamed of the body she was in
From a big world that decided beauty's only in the eye of the thin
[Verse 2]
So it's binge and purge, stomach acid burns
She sings perfectly in tune, but no one understands her words
She said "build me a castle", so I went to work
And ignored the problem in the almighty name of her
I've been here before, happens every time
I stay so focused on the light I wind up going blind
As time slipped by, didn't realize
She was disappearing into thin air right in front of my eyes
An old wise man used to say to me don't play with smoke and mirrors
I'm up to a pack and a half a day
I sleep by myself, cause there's no one else here