17 years old, so nice but so bold
Some nights are so cold, but Ive been told
I have a heart of gold, my feelings I've sold
To the hands of women with the darkest souls
I have barely little to no control
Over my own world so I console
With myself, I have no therapist
No one to stop myself from slicing my wrists
Blood stained shirt, probably think it's paint
People confuse my hate for nice when it ain't
I'm just shy and have everyone I hate leaving my house
And trying to have fun
Cause it never works out, and it never will
I wanna drink sizzurp and take a bunch of pills
See what happens, slow motion potion with a light pa**ion
Of rapping on beats thats slapping with ba**
To get the flow going so I can just take
My time with the beats and I sound so good
Make the power come from the speakers blasting till the roof
Shakes and breaks and crackles
Snacking on cereal like a f**ing jackal
I wake don't bake though so I'm not a ha**le
I'm the king in my thrown in my own damn castle
See me live and see me breathe
You'll hear some things you won't believe
Wake up everyday at 5 in the morn
Wonder why i was even f**ing born
Get angry at the clock for waking me up
I get my soul ready for taking enough
School when i get there exhausted
I forgot to do my homework whoops I lost it
My teacher calls my mom, my mom starts b**hing
I go to my room, my head starts itching
I wanna make songs, but I have no buzz
I don't do d** cause It's not too fun
For me, I'm a light weight, a feather in the b**h in m y own case
I look at my phone wait for a text from my girl
The only person I love in this whole damn world
So it hurts when we fight cause I don't wanna lose her
I never lie to her, and I don't abuse her
Shes my girl and shes all that I want
She's the only girl i can be with and flaunt
She gets my style and my on weird ways
She accepts me when I'm normal
Or having my weird days
So i have to keep the love even though its hard
I almost lost it twice both the times my fault
I f** everything up I know thats a fact
My mom called me a bum the other day thats wack
But true all i do is sit in my room
Nothing to do but make songs that I think are cool