17 years old, paranoid and an introvert
Stare at girls in public, wonder whats going on under their skirts
Big a** head, but don't have an ego
Chris Remy's weird, thats just something he knows
Make a lot of lyrics, and I'm always just cursing
Listen to my songs, practice fake concerts rehearsing
Stand in the mirror, and not like what I see
Has become a daily habit thing in the life that I conceived
From my mom, and I never really liked it
I had a lot of demons that I had to start fighting
They would take over control, skeletons in the closet getting large
But I k**ed them all off so I was left in charge
Of my life, I gotta stop being so depressed
When did I start looking at my life like it was sh**
I used to smile everyday cause everyday was chill
Now I have these suicidal thoughts and sometimes I wanna k**
The person I see in the mirror who's there
Standing all crooked like, with a head of messy hair
Shaking hands, match the shaky vision
I have a messy life so I'm constantly b**hing
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Friends look at me with some pity, even the girls who are pretty
And I don't want that anymore cause that feelings gets sh**ty
When you get felt sorry for cause you just complain
For the problems going on and taking over your brain
My mom and I fight and I know that we shouldn't
I failed the grade when I know that I couldn't
I get so lazy I lay in bed all day and think
Go down the street to get a bag of chips and a drink
Text my girlfriend, who's taller than me and can drive
She's actually doing something with her own life
She has way better then me, but we still fight
You can see the sadness in both of us if you look into our eyes
I don't do good in school anymore, cause I lost the motivation
I try so hard to impress my mom I think it's desperation
Just wanna feel loved like a teenage kid should feel
But to the weirdo's and the loners are the only kids I appeal