I'm sick of being a target of hatred
I'm sick of waitin for life to change
I'm sick of feeling like it's all been wasted
In Stayin in a game that become completely derranged
I'm sick of the pain of watching my fathers life slip away
Day by day the same sh** f**ing with my brain
I'm sickly afraid he's alread begun to decay in a way
I can't prevent or restrain him from being heaven sent
My heart is bent backwards this hurt is a stain
That doesn't ever seem to fade
I'm amazed at how the hate has stayed ablaze
Like how I'm sick of the sh** that I have to take
And all my life I've embraced cuz
I can't control my face or my race
I can't control being a disgrace
I can't control how much my family gets paid
I'm poor, and I'm not ashamed, I'm chained
But I'm sick of always feeling like I'm the one to blame
For the same reason I rap it, ditch the chains, switching lanes
Aiming high, fighting through the rain and the clouds
I come out proud, with every fear I had slain, be amazed
Man I know I'm fifteen but I still have problems
Like a puzzle, no rebu*tle, cuz now I gotta solve em
It's obvious I'm not flawless, I'm on the bottom
But shockless I promise
Someday I'll be the hottest
And all my worries will be on college
But man who am I kidding? my heart is sore
And girls come into my life and only hurt is more
Worthless who*es, why move further for?
Its all fun and games til someone gets hurt
So why love others for?
Bonds were supposed to be torn
But here I am fighting on my own
Not much worse than a girl fighting on the phone
All my fire is gone, its like lighting a stone
I'm prepared to live life alone
Just hand me a f**ing microphone
Im lyrically gifted always staying original
My words are all spiritual but all you care about is physical
When I rhyme you might catch sight of something mythical
Despite the dimmed lights in my life, I'll provide you a miracle
Every syllable I speak
Lyrically complete
Im generally mystique
Like memories, I am weak
I follow guys, but I lead
I apologize for the breed
Of hollowed eyes I conceive
My conscious mind depletes
Confidence is the beat but I got
Lost in it instantly
I'm polished with different jesus like
Consequental religiously devine
Within time I'm the only rapper out speaking my mind
But no one listens to why the f**in do I even try? pick a side already
It's what I said and I meant it
Lyrically im preaching life but I'm dead in every sentence
The beats a bed and im a blanket
Im seeing red no way to fake it
Or escape it, I don't want it
Heres my soul now f**ing take it
My demon is fed you are a witness
It's a sickness I bet now you listeners will pay attention
My world is enraged and that's the way it will stay
My life will never change, now sit back and be amazed