Cat Mayel:
Stuck in emptiness
Trapped in despair
Nothing to do but escape
So many ways to save myself
The shadow of me has taken over
Just counting the pills weighing my way out
Been schooling myself on this for so long
There's peace in silence
My head hurts from forcing happy
Drowning in pain you don't know about me
Nothing else to say please don't judge me
Sometimes losing is winning
Boogey:
This might sound too drake..
..but if you reading this it's too late
I tied the noose like a two year old trying to fix a shoe lace
Might try to use some pills and sip some cool aid..
..mixed with codeine and vodka or maybe just snap and slit my wrist and finish the job for them n***as who damaged my hand and missed a few veins
We got coke and fanta over here so skip the cool aid
I can make my old wounds vanish quickly with this new blade
Blood stains on this stainless steel
I really wanna know how the relief of dying this painless feels
Erase the darkness
Off to a better place, no hardship
Was made from dust and now the dust shall come to replace the carca**
This how it feels when the favoured one goes from grace to garbage
I aimed to be great but only managed to scrape the target
I never lost my drive even when all my mates were car sick..
.. But now I feel like it is time to hit the brakes and park it
I got a bright idea, my neighbour's a policeman and he's in church
Imma break in find his pistol, seize it first and then decide if I should blow my brains and traumatize anybody that sees it first
How do I use one of these? How do I use one of these
Got to make it work
Get the bullet first
God I hate to search
There it is, i take two and save a third..
..Just in case I mess these up somehow
Do I point it to my temple with one hand?
Put it in my mouth with two and two fingers on the trigger, what do I do if the gun jam
Obviously never done this before, God!
Maybe this whole idea dumb as a doorknob..
.. Or not