Did I long to possess you and leave useless words unsaid?
You lie alabaster, translucent,
the warm harsh glow of my Sun-reality
How I long for you
I thought you held my answer
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I wait, as one anticipating a revolution
I implicate you with the power of my salvation
To draw me to the new beginnings I fear to face
I imagine I uncover my universal symbol,
beautiful and potent before me,
aglow within the fiery embers of pa**ion
Aglow in pleasure,
and whispers to me of the beginnings of life
You leave the realm of the ideal
To become flesh and form, you now exist!
I no longer long for you,
as I would an elusive goddess
After so many years of living in illusion,
I fear I have found my ideal,
I fear I have uncovered the soul of the dream
and I vest this moment with such power
I feel the brute, uncertain of my intention; the intention of my heart
I tumble from the net of security
to reattain the highwire of this new life
Taking my first somnambulistic steps towards the realm of faith
I imagine you there to guide me,
to gently break my fall; not from grace (of God, as some would imply)
but in a most zealous manner
As martyrs we fell - souls filled with pa**ion
Bursting with glorious human suffering and joy
The twin blessing we may bestow upon ourselves
Like fallen stars,
blazing and smoking
in this beautiful searing power of a single being
Plummeting to salvation in the compa**ion of our ideal