I sit I'm my room claustrophobic
As I watch the walls breath succumbing to self pity
And these voices won't leave
I got a revolver in my hand with six chambers and they all full
Every bullet contradicts the contemplation of suicide
I wanna die. So I sit and clinch my bible until my palms sweat, and blister
Cause I hate my sister
First I'm gonna light a candle in the form of a seance
And see the light on the wall reflect all this childhood neglect
I co*k the hammer, I let the steel touch my tongue and taste the metal for the first time, I see the faces of my loved ones
But f** a note, cause when I do it, I want it to be a mystery, and let them feel the same pain that I felt, this is the remedy
Goodbye, sad days, I'd rather sleep my life away
Goodbye, heartbreak, I found my own way, Suicide
I get on my knees and say a prayer
I tell god that I can't handle all this pressure
I wanna kick it up there
Why should I wanna live? When my mother used to molest me in front of my stepfather
She beat me and he undressed me, see
He took my manhood before I became a man, so now I sit here at 16 with this gun in my hand
d**h is the only way out, the murder of myself will show em all the theres a way out
I cry for my soul
Depression has taken a toll on my every existence, so when I think of humiliation I can't breathe
Its time to leave
Cause I'm gone show what you did, for tormenting me as a kid, you raised me, now look what I did
Goodbye, sad days, I'd rather sleep my life away
Goodbye, heartbreak, I found my own way, Suicide
I don't wanna die, I wanna breathe again, I don't wanna have to say.....
Goodbye, sad days, I'd rather sleep my life away
Goodbye, heartbreak, I found my own way, Suicide
My soul is slipping away, I don't wanna leave, not in this way