[Verse 1: Andrew Sam]
I look around me, as a college kid
Parties and hangouts, what everybody did
Red cups and bottles, everybody sips
Couldn't understand it, going on dizzy trips
Why do that to yourself? Fun can be sober
But then I see the edge, and I go over
I'm tired of the world, I'm tired of the pain
And the temptation starts riding up again
I've never drank before, but should I start now?
My dad says not to, but he does when he feels down
Now I'm feeling down, and soda's not enough
Bubbles burn my throat, but it's still kids' stuff
Now I know what I want, a self-imposed punishment
Just something to force my emotions' banishment
Take the pain away, and just black my mind out
I've heard that alc is bad, but I needa find out
[Verse 2: Andrew Sam]
Down on my luck for 20 years, who to blame?
Must be doing something wrong if 20 years been the same
I haven't lived well, and I haven't lived smart
All I have left is my rapping as my art
But when no one's listening, where else do I turn?
Might actually feel good to have my throat burned
They pour one out in tribute for the dead
Let's pour one out for my happiness instead
I'd drink to that, just a shot to relieve stress
Another shot for the heaviness in my chest
Another shot 'cause I've got nothing left
Another shot to make me a little deaf
These voices in my head are increasingly hostile
Needa shut 'em up 'cause they're making me feel awful
Got more than enough friends, now I'm tryna find love
They say it's my fault that I'm lonely, and I should just give up