[Aye Ray]
I'm a good kid, with bad habits
Every opportunity I got, I failed to grab it
I'm a good kid, who makes bad decisions
Momma tellin' me no, and I always failed to listen
Life's a game of Poker, everybody is dealt a different hand in life
I remember standing in the kitchen with my hand on a knife
Should I hit? Do I stay
Does it even f**ing matter?
Head full of that grey matter, but I'm ready to have it splattered
Until I met this girly, I loved when her hair was curly
And then she dipped out early, she really just left me hurting
She asked me what's my sign, I told her, "A Gemini"
Her eyes lit up, like she had a gem in her eye
She's a gem in disguise, she said, "I'm sick of men, and their lies"
I told her to break those ties, get out of your pit, and rise
He wasn't worth your time, then again neither am I
I knew I didn't have a chance, it was foolish for me to try
He doesn't care about your feelings, he wants you to say he has you
He doesn't care 'bout your values
I know, it's sad, but I had to
I had to come, detach you, before you get stuck like statues
I know it goes 'gainst your statutes, I'll make it quick 'fore he snatch you
Putting on concealer to conceal your insecurities, relying on your make up to hide all your impurities
My eyes are closed, and heart is pacing
Tryna fall asleep, instead my thoughts are racing
Every little thing got thinking about you all over again, so many f**ing thoughts, it makes me want to pick up the pen
Got me wondering when, things will go back to back then
But you're dealing with other men, and it s**s cause you were a ten
But more than anything else, I just wanted to stay friends
But it's not too late for that, there's plenty of time to make amends
I'm happy I was able to help you set yourself free
You were blinded by love, and it was me who had helped you see
I don't know what or why that you felt you could trust me
When you were crying and telling me the sh** he did, it disgust me
I'll never forget that f**ing Snapchat that you sent me
I know you said my name, but I still doubted that you meant me
Texting each other all night, staying up to 4:30
Snapchatting some nonsense, occasionally getting dirty
But all that sh** is over now, I dust it off my shoulder now
And even though I still look back at the kitchen and knife, I restrain myself cause I know it'll get better in life