I try to, sit back and relax up in this cold world
But I'm focused on money & f**ing pretty girls
My mother struggling working hours for f**ing pennies
And I'm just failing in school, the lord should f**ing k** me
See mama spent her last on a n***a
And I'm the reason why she really wasting plenty figures
While mama working and going broke for my education
I'm just chillin, f**ing b**hes with no hesitation
Picture that, ya mother thinking that her son is doing right
He went away to school & left the hood for a better life
But in reality, your still the same
You left the hood, but the hood in you will never change
That's real sh**, like messages on a Sunday morning
You know the pastor speaking facts if his people mourning
That's why they quick to throw tides up in the n***a plate
They believe that he would never lie to they face
But little do they know...
Contemplating on cheating on me...
Knowing that I hate the thought of another n***a
Inside of them walls, where many, of my unborns made it
I love her, so to me, her p**y sacred
But see Nicole a different breed, from ya average chick with double d's
She 4'11 with an attitude & thing for weave
Her, mother is sick and struggling everyday to breathe
This is something on her conscience...
Plus I'm f**ing up and watching other b**hes, please
I'm barely acting like the man that I use to be...
I call you beautiful, we argue, then I call you b**h...
...it's crazy
Flirting with ya friends, when you be avoiding mine
I feel bad that I told ya Philly joint she fine...
Even tho I didn't cheat, I think that I deserved...
That little dose of that sh** I learned march 3rd
When I confronted you...
Living in sin..
I'm so ungracious
But to understand why the f** I am this way...
You would need a, spaceship
Cause my mind is out this world
Some other sh**, I can't explain
The view is tinted on my window pane
No man is perfect, I'm working on being more than Dunna
No "you remind me of ya father" cause I barely knew him
So you compare me to a ghost, cause they share the same value
He shares the blood of his child too...
But he ain't give a f**, so I shouldn't give a f**
It's all for self, others feelings is left in a nut
That I prolly busted in some random skeet...
Mouth, of course, I got enough unborns as we speak
But I apologize to everyone I treated wrong
The list is long, I couldn't fit y'all all in one song
I'm looking back upon my past, asking is this me
Im turning into something that I said I wouldn't be
But I can't f**ing help it...