Late nights talking to myself again
Spend a couple months
I think I'd probably need some help
But most of y'all ain't really helping sh**
Yeah, I've been minding my business
And I've been lonely as f**
Cause y'all ain't focus half as much
As when I'm toasted and such
Searching frantic for the spliff
I think I'm sobering up
sh**, and lately, I've been causing damage when I speak
Situations getting sticky like I came without the grease
And I'm just living how they raised me
I'm on my hands and knees
Like I'm scraping chalk on the pavement
My mother, she wasn't sh**
Cause she was k**ing herself as a sub for loving her kids
Now I'm the one who has to suffer for this?
Man I've been stuck in this sh**
I'm not the one to trust somebody when I meet them
Never cuffing rather f** them, then i leave them
sh**, I've learned my lesson twice:
I mixed tobacco with some reaper
And my body got advice but it ain't awful and I need it
I've been stubborn headed ever since I was a young'n
There's trouble where I'm headed
Ever since I was a young'n
And I remember days when I was just a young'n
When I make it where I'm headed
No you won't be saying nothing
When its feeling like this order might be missing
sh**, it ain't no time for nostalgia
Man, I got sh** to do
When it's sunny, know I know I've got the blinds all shut
I'm just trying to keep my mind off stuff
Yesterday be feeling like a week ago
I got issues I've been dealing with
I need a smoke
And I remember thinking sh** was plain and simple
But now I'm feeling like some bacon off the
Griddle fried, raise your middle
Fingers high, now tell them all
That I don't give a f**
You dip your toes in the shallow
While I was raking them up
Bottom feeder, trying to eat
Think I've been patient enough
So make your exit before I make you a punk
Cause I've been solo for a minute
Think I know what I'm doing
My mother struggled with addiction
Saw my father abuse her
But I'm not taking any shots
That's just the way that it went
[?]
Or at least I make an attempt
Cause I'm paying my rent
7316 is the spot
While you can smell the trouble brewing
I've been mixing the pot
Running from my demons
I'm quickest when I'm ditching the cops
Man I've been stressing just to get what I've got
I've been stubborn headed ever since I was a young'n
There's trouble where I'm headed
Ever since I was a young'n
And I remember days when I was just a young'n
When I make it where I'm headed
No you won't be saying nothing
When the summer comes around
I think I'm over it
If theres one thing that I know
It's I ain't been knowing sh**
So when its sunny know you know I got the blinds all shut
And I'm just trying to keep my mind off stuff
Lately no sh** with budget
But opportunity cost
That's more than most of y'all can say
I'm feeling stupid and lost
And sh** my confidence low
I think I could use some applause
And I'm just trying to save some room for my thoughts
(so now I suppose comes the inherent f**ing grilling about how I feel about all this?)
(is that why you're here?)
(I don't know what to say really)
(I want to prove something. I want to prove how much you're [?])