[Aha Gazelle, O. Nicole and J. Tess]
You not for real you just playin'
I don't believe a word you're sayin'
Who ya think you foolin
What you think you're doing
What ya really workin for
You not really one of us
It's you ya really hurtin
What's really your purpose
What you really living for
Don't you wanna be one of us
I know you must be afraid
What's after the grave
Do you know what you've been searching for
Who ya really workin for
I know you must be scared
Feel like nothings there
What ya really livin for
Don't you wanna be one of us
[Verse 1: Aha Gazelle]
I'm so fresh up on it
Me and my clique like a metronome is
Pride on top like tetesteroni
Ain't cool when you fall like November for homeless
But that's none of my business I'ma sip this soda
Wait I don't drink soda if my pee stay yellow it's cause my kidneys are golden
Prolly too optimistic but that's only part that I can see like Moses
Sitting in my bedroom watching anime
Have you ever seen a party Where they playin patty cake
I can eat the patty cake and throw it up all in ya face
And disregard the fact that I don't care what mom and daddy say
The stuff I think about is deeper than a 20 foot vase
With an old man inside sitting down playing ba**
When he hits the note right he makes the place vibrate
He doesn't wanna leave he likes the way it feels when he plays
I know a chick name Myrtle
Her favorite color purple
She told me God hates her cause he didn't make her fertile
She used to always say she understands she's not perfect
But she's still a sweet girl why do people just dessert her
Know a chick named Mariah
She always wore designer
Don't ask her how she got it cause she don't need a reminder
But when it come to church I guarantee
You never find her cause she felt she wasn't worth it and that made her suicidal
Knew a girl named Anita
Always getting misdemeanors
Said she's sick of always dealin with these crooked hearted people
Anyone who ever knew her knew she really wasn't evil
But the only guy she ever loved was on d** and beat her
Had a bad one named Sarah
Used to love laughter
She only believed in God cause her daddy was a pastor
Insecure as a clown with way too much mascara
And I really felt bad cause she really was attractive
Kid named William
Alone in the building
Never felt he did belong with all the other children
He thought he had some friends but he always had suspicions
Anytime he played the field he would always get bitten
But he still cared about the way that they were livin
Felt that they would perish if they didn't see his vision
Conversations with the crickets cause they guaranteed they'd listen
[Aha Gazelle]
I know you must be afraid
What's after the grave
Do you know what you've been searching for
Who ya really workin for
I know you must be scared
Feel like nuthins there
What ya really livin for
Don't you wanna be one of us
[Interlude: Aha Gazelle]
Whoever's still listening to this
Y'all, y'all my best friends straight up
[Aha Gazelle]
This a song that I'll prolly never perform live no
This a song that I'll prolly never perform live
This a song that I'll prolly never perform live cause I'd be embarra**ed by the look I see in your eyes
But at you least you'll understand that I never wore a disguise
So you can't say you were surprised
[Verse 2: Aha Gazelle]
First of all forget anyone who thinks that they know me
The old me died some years ago with super swag Ent
When it was TrillWill Hatak**a TJ and Dee
Before TJ got on Instagram and called my mama a B
They say that people change in college so they can be apart
I don't think they change they just become who they really are
Ain't not Mom and Dad to regulate everything that you do
Ain't gone make you go to church God gotta be real to you
And honestly there's not a single thing that's really wrong with that
It's all apart of growin up and there's never really goin back
Cause you and I both know it's something's that our folks will never get
There scared because they know it too our generations are way too gapped
I'm working on staying respectful when receiving advice that's not really helpful
You got your masters degree ok well that's really not special
You working for another person who prolly ain't never met you
It's room full of iPhones and you showed up with a pencil
But let me shut up my mouth is always gon get me in trouble
I'm always speaking outloud I used to get spanked when I mumbled
Be careful who you call slow just know the tortoise is coming
I'm being humble and lyin it's way too wild in this jungle
Thank you listening I appreciate you bumping this
But Greenbeans still the best project that I ever did
If you disagree then you prolly just follow all the trends
Give it 5 years or so and everything gon' make sense
All I did was give em what they wanted to hear
I got em hollin Free Barabbas know my message is clear
But I'm still TeamGMG for my day 1s that's with me and still remember when my dreadlocks wasn't even touchin my ears
And my goal was never to get a bunch of people to follow me
I know a lot of people only waiting for the lottery
You never really understood you ain't gotta lie to me
I'm done tryna show my vision to people who ain't tryna see
[Aha Gazelle]
I'm screaming this a song that I'll prolly never perform live oh my God
This a song that I'll prolly never perform live no
This a song that I'll prolly never perform live cause I'd be embarra**ed by the look I see in your eyes
But at you least you'll understand that I never wore a disguise
So you can't say you were surprised
[Verse 3: Aha Gazelle]
Uno number 1 I guess I'm tryna be the best ever
The thoughts I think are too clever
I'm lyin I ain't nun special
Cause honestly I'm more self conscious
Then a freshman in college who spends her money on clothes shoes hoping she gets acknowledged
By an uppercla**men who's only with her for the pounding then he graduates and separates as he makes the announcement
She begins cry then finds another guy she thinks is solid
But he's only wit her cause well ya know he heard about her
So plays his part well buys her roses and the violets
And all the a**orted chocolates then he makes his deposit
When it's time for withdrawal he be moving with silence he didn't even save her number and his Instagram was private
So now she in her dorm room weepin and the cryin
Only to be consoled by her roommate name Mya
Mya said she should pledge somthin to reignite her fire
So to keep it on the low so they don't know she keeps it quiet
So a few months later she crosses feeling enlightened
But inside she still knows them letters can't cover her milage
But ignores the knowledge cause an athlete wanna try her
The never ending repetition of the same cycle oh my God
[Aha Gazelle]
This a song that I'll prolly never perform live, no no no no no
This a song that I'll prolly never perform live
[Verse 4: Aha Gazelle]
Rapper or a politician I shoulda thought twice
Cause I gotta shake hands and smile with people I really don't like
And I'm tryna rea**ure myself inside like it'll be alright
It's only been some months how could yall be fake ya whole life
And I finally realized I'm not a Christian rapper
That was just a title that was made up to keep some people happy
Cause I can walk the walk and talk like this to please the chatty pattys
But I still like to use slang, wear gold, and my hair is nappy
I'm still gon clap on 2 and 4
I'm still gon boogie through the door
I'm still gon watch the way I walk so my jays don't crease up at the toes
I'm still gon put on all this gold
I'm still gon let you know I'm cold
I'm still gon stunt in all my pictures
And I'm still gon stop and strike a pose
You shouldn't have to change what God made just to go to a church
I understand we're not the same but bruh that ain't how it works
Cause we can read the bible word for word and quote every verse
But if we don't apply it in real life then tell me what was it worth
But I'ma transfer from a baptist church I'ma need all my credits
White out the dark blemishes hoping I get accepted
Reject my brothers and sisters and act like I never met em
Just to be with Martha, Kate, Tanner, Jason, and Rebecca
[Aha Gazelle]
Oh my God
This a song that I'll prolly never ever never ever never ever perform live
No no no no I'm so tired so tired
[Verse 5: Aha Gazelle]
No surprises if I told you I'd do it I did it
This ain't a hobby I caught the body and got rid of the witness
No condemnation for those who in Jesus, I'm ignoring my flesh, recognizing the importance of my spirit I'm starting to get it
And people takin shots with a flat ball
They need pick a side I'm seein all these cat dogs
Lurkin into my private like they lookin for a case to solve
But I guess they weren't big enough like a keyboard with the caps off
And as long people judge me they gon always get the facts wrong
And I'll beat every charge like a product with the tax off
And Won't nobody say it but they think I should rub my black off
Don't have the spine to say it to my face I suggest that you back off I need to chill
I joke when I say things have been going real swell
This murder was premeditated if you still can't tell
Everything was planned and prayed for I sat back as time fell
More patience then a waiter with two plates and a silver barbell
A co-worker said why you at this store if you got your degree
I looked at her and said that its only some insurance to me
I only got it cause stats say that a black man can't
But it has nothing to do with will or whether not I'll succeed
Cause I refuse to work Monday through Friday 8-5 in the evening
Where the only thing I look forward to is being off on the weekends
All in hopes to be promoted just to sit in longer meetings
And then retire and sit at home all day while I'm waiting on Jesus
You can call me stupid but Gazelle is not gon do it
It's not my fault that God decided to make me better at music
I'll never forget when my boss said oh you one of them dreamers
And for a split second I thought that what I was doing was foolish
But then I snap back like boy you trippin what is you doin
The hardest thing about growing is that you can't feel the movement
I've been alone in this theater for about 6 years they look at me confused while in describing this movie
But anyways switchin the subject to me in feelings
I've been having a problem separating Aha from William
Hiding from the problem not knowing that the burden is me
It's just that Aha the version of me that I always wanted to be
He wears all black with Jordans and gold chains and gold teeth
When all the cameras are all watching he just takes over the beat
He always knows what to say and he's not afraid when he speaks
But when it all goes away he just transforms back to me
Door closed lights off sitting on top of the rug
Hands dirty from everything that we done got from the mud
Most of it was never needed but it was done just because
He's in my head laughin like ha ha ha boy they lovin the thug
And I laugh to myself as I look up above
This a song without a hook the whole time I was the drug
I tried shake God's hand and He gave me hug
Then He whispered in my ear its all luh
Aha
I'm Sorry, I'm sorry
[Outro: Aha Gazelle]
I learned you gotta watch who you kick it with
I learned you gotta watch who you kick it with
People say they real but they counterfeit
People say they real but they counterfeit
Jesus is who I'm rockin wit
Jesus is who I'm rockin wit
And I'm not ashamed to tell nobody
Imma treat her like a queen
Even if she wanna be a
Even if she wanna be a
Even if she wanna be a
Even if she wanna be a
Even if she wanna be a
Even if she wanna be a
Even if she wanna be a
Even if she wanna be a thotty
Sitting in my bedroom talking to the mirror
Don't call me crazy I know that I can hear Him
He said why you change what happened to your spirit
What happened to you, you used to be a real one
You ain't gotta want me, you ain't gotta want me, cause they want me
You ain't gotta need me, you ain't gotta need me, they need me
You ain't gotta love me, you ain't gotta love me, they love me
You ain't gotta want me, you ain't gotta want me, cause they want me
You ain't gotta need me, you ain't gotta need me, they need me
You ain't gotta love me, you ain't gotta love me, they love me