Ain’t at the place that I wish that I was
Sacrificing years I could be living it up
But I’m never playing with ideas of giving it up
Giving my trust harder and harder they hitting me up
You gotta go thru a friend if we getting in touch
I already barely got the time and ain’t givin enough
They all wanna get up close like I’m given em hugs
But then they wanna go ghost when I need em for stuff, damn
I can’t remember the last time that I slept well
But then again if I could then maybe I been failed
I gotta work for my food if ima be fed well
No one really understands so they can’t help
I’m back in it
They half in it I’m laughing at
All these wack a*s rappers I’m pa**ionate
They wanna be me or try to beat me I’m fast with it
My bros got me these h**s want me but that s**t is
Temporary as snowfall in the wintertime
And I ain’t there at the top but I know I’m finna climb
Pray to God I’m forgiven for every sin of mine
And blessings coming they couldn’t come at a better time
Yeah, matter fact
I gotta improvise
Cause people telling me lies and looking me in the eyes
I gotta dip and get my busy minutes minimized
I’m tryna live and do this s**t all on limited time
I swear I’m busting my a*s
My parents prolly embarra**ed of me for cussing in raps
And forreal I’d be trippin to think that they’d understand
I grew up with everyone saying I can’t
Then went to college and skipped like all my cla**es
Started writing cla**ics
Knew I could make it happen
If I just quit holding back
Dropped out my family ain’t know how to react
I knew what I could be before they ever had my back
I don’t know where I would be
If I was scared to believe
This s**t was really for me
And I’ma go down as a legend when they burying me
I just knew I had to get it no one carrying me
I remember being scared and almost calling it quits
Cause at the time I bet my Mom could admit
That I was awful as s**t
Thinking every single song was a hit
But at school they used to call me a b***h
So I penned my aggression up in the songs
I could rap on this beat for an hour long
Ain’t nobody here like me so am I wrong
Tell me who’s a man like me to Question God
If I get cut I bleed but I’m stayin strong
Seems like now that’s the only choice that I got
Tryna keep the peace as I see my enemies plot
Some days I can’t believe this really my job
I just bodied this beat now I’m signing off