I took some time to myself
To sort out all the things
That make me feel the way that I feel
Just this year I lost a basketball team to heaven
And I'm sure they're shooting jumpers
With Jesus, Mary and Joseph
And they said “they wouldn't notice it”
If they had disappeared
But I swore I got a phone call
So that seemed pretty weird
So caught up in my own head
I took a walk down my street
Thought I'd find something to eat
But I headed back immediately
'Cause I'm pretty scared of guns
So go out and have fun, let loose
And I'll daydream of the noose that took my friend Sean's life
And he thought we wouldn't notice it
If he had disappeared
But I swore I got a phone call
So that seemed f**ing weird
So caught up in my own head
I took my hair down today
And I took a shower for the first time in what felt like weeks
I found myself falling down
And I felt myself falling up (?)
That can't seem to be the reason
I can't sleep when I'm alone
It's getting better (?)
It's hard to think about you
And at your funeral
You swore that you would love me
And I swore I'd love you too
And you'll barely even notice it when I disappear