[Produced By Skytzo Beats]
[Verse 1]
Mama left me with my old man, old man left mama for the unknown
It gets cold in the summer, and my chest gets hot when the sun's gone
Mixed emotions, tryna figure out exactly what I've done wrong
Stevie Wonder on repeat
And I'm thinking why the hell she keep listening to this dumb song
But I just let that play in my brain while the yelling gets louder
Door slams, mom leaves, and I play with this white thick powder
I got used to him not being there, and now I'm here
Detached from the one I love, and now there's a pain I feel
Why would god want me here, roses everywhere in sight
Every night I shedded a tear, hoping for a new change in life
Couldn't see what my old man knew, wondered why he was so damn strict
Over the years thick skin grew, now I can't be hurt by noun, n***a or b**h
Wait, that's a lie, that's being in denial
Spit the coal in the terms they put in the vows
I seldom think of heavens in clouds
Hell below is where sin's allowed
What's in between, what's in between
I swear that I see the after life when I close my eyes and I'm in between
The woman, so torn by my first woman
Wish God warned me about this woman, maybe I wouldn't be so scorned by the woman
Like Mama, she betrayed me and I didn't see it coming
She lied, and a part of me died
The rest of me burnt apart that lie and put the ashes in the river
I put the ashes in the river
Now I'm a half a** n***a
With a full understanding of hope, sh**
I hope deep, cuz all of these hoes get
And I ain't taking no sh**, love and hate is the same, no sh**
[Woman Speaking]
This just in, you are looking at, uh, obviously a very disturbing live shot, that is the World Trade Center and we have unconfirmed reports this morning that a plane has crashed into one of the towers of the World Trade Center
[Second Woman Speaking]
The city is experiencing murders at a record level, in just 6 months there have been 228 murders. Up 35% since last year and twice as many as the number of Americans lost on the battlefields of Afghanistan over the past 6 months
[Man Speaking]
People are scared to come out of doors, scared for their kids, they sit on their porches and they play on the playground. It's total fear
[Second Man Speaking]
As long, now sister I know you've been reading the bible, but as long as we said play it up, the wicked want to keep it. But God says it's time for us to tell that money that you don't belong to the wicked, you belong to us, and I want you to get in the right place. MONEY!
[Verse 2]
No matter what people say
No matter what, I'll be a slave
Even if I believe that when he returns that I'll be saved
I'm mentally slaved, the bible is still man made
And I wasn't there when it was made
Please show me somebody there when it was made
How we know that this isn't a [?]
Or that it's premeditated and we're all being played
Waded in the water, slaughtered, and called it a plague
And a f**ed up saying, who's got the balls to be brave?
So now that I'm confused by belief I still gotta live still gotta find peace
Need a way to divide, you know a n***a gotta eat
So I'm taught to divide and multiply not arit
[Outro]
It's been half my years in that sytem, you know they try to get ahead
Or is the system design to hold me down and leave me dead
Graduated and all but sh** I still need some bread
I'm in the negatives cuz I done gave all you people my bread
I'm a university slave, again mislead
Can't tell who is really after me, Hell on Earth this has to be
I'f jail don't go and capture me cuz the streets done captured me
Cuz I'm failed by the tale of Jesus coming to rapture me
Oh it ain't time? Well, what more do you ask of me
I've put my hope in selling dope and wasn't a real dope athlete
My body's in hell because these animals are pastured wheat
In love with the woman, but her love only last a week
Blinded and forced to listen to when pastor speaks
I'm left with no money, no faith, no love
This is where disaster meets