Intro:
Lets go deep inside the solitary mind of a mad man who screams/
In the dark, evil lurks, enemies see me and flee/
Ill tell you about the trials, tribulations, and the pain/
This war within my brain, the yin, the yang/
Verse 1:
I fight my demons with affirmations, give thanks for the pastors praying/
Beneath the hand of God ill make my way through these storms im facing/
Protected by a shield of love, I free my mind with vegas that I fill with buds/
Wishing I could go back to the times I drank to feel a buzz/
Many nights im sleepless in my thoughts, whole time a gold mine inside me, I been digging deep/
Im finding truth, I overthink, feel no security cause hoes can't keep it real with me/
The devils working hard, I know none of these dudes would k** for me/
I struggle expressing love, I hold a grudge, not new to anger/
Swallowed all the d** while doc was stacking funds, im just a stranger/
No f**s to give for a troubled kid/
Im puffin cigs like I don't wanna live, this ain't the way to live/
Hook:
My God I pray that you forgive all my mistakes/
Theres no future living in the past, those memories erased/
Im in another state, ive been state to state to state to state/
Ill be home soon, I promise we gon get it straight, I repent/
My only need is for me to be free from my sins, paranoia, depression, and anxiety, please?/
Down on my knees, im not perfect but im worth it/
Aimed my pistol at the devil and his army, closed curtains/
Verse 2:
Day and night I don't get faded, I don't fear todays my last day/
When I am alone I don't feel shattered like a gla** vase/
Rarely ever stressed, ciggys don't overflow my ashtray/
Hit my knees and prayed you change it all and met you half way/
Observer of these feelings resting in my heart/
Can't picture love a paradise, I fell for many parasites/
These freindemies in my presence full of toxic energy/
I often smile when reminiscing, many memories living maliciously/
Proof the enemy still lives in me/
Pitching me evils in hopes that I strike, I swing with all my might/
Guilt and shame, its hard to hide it when your purpose in this lifes to love/
And you not living righteous, but you want eternal life above/
I wash my hands, and right my wrongs, and find myself through solitude/
So what is it that's stopping you? im smashing through these obstacles/
Can't live my life complacent with mood swings and hatred, feeling jaded/
Amazed how I made it through all these mazes/
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