[Verse 1: Ill-Noize]
Yea, just focus on your breathing
They say don't let it get the best of you, just breathe in... (breathe out)
As if they know what it feels like
But you don't know what lies inside my mind
Sometimes I lay in bed & I ponder on d**h
& all the other times I'm there
I'm f**in' thinkin' of s**xx... yesss...
I'm X-Rated, explicit content, no containment
& I'm not here for your entertainment
I'm no Jesus Christ, I'm not a figmentation...
I'm just a man tired of the lies
Searchin' for his reasons inside to want to stay alive...
[Hook: Ill-Noize]
Uh! What's become of my life
& can someone explain to me all these sleepless nights?!
3am thoughts of suicide
It's like there's no more options, every choice we get is do or die...
So I try to focus on the bigger picture
Who am I kidding? I'm not weak enough to pull this trigger...
Searchin' for my peace of mind
I'm sick & tired of being left behind...
[Verse 2: Ill-Noize]
Another night sittin' all alone
Writing, & working, drillin' my fingers to the bone
Can't sleep, so I just get stoned
& my girl works early so she's asleep at home
I try to tune out the negative energy
But these lonely 3am nights get the best of me
So I'll watch Forgetting Sarah Marshall for the 100th time, Scott Pilgrim, or That 70's Show & get high
With hyde & the gang in basement
Bring me back to similar times, when life was basic
Screamin' that "I wish I was a kid again! Don't grow up, it's a trap!"
Life's a net, & we're the crab... (deadliest catch)
Ready to get caught up in the bullsh**
Reality TV with nothin' real about it
Social Media & Tabloids are where people get their news
& you wonder why I'm over here singing the blues... hah!
[Hook:]
[Bridge: Ill-Noize]
Hold on... but this time I'm letting go
I bet you can't imagine
How slow the time is draggin'...
Close my eyes & imagine
I'm running with the Dragons...
(Repeat in background during hook)
[Hook:]
Uh! What's become of my life
& come someone explain to me all these sleepless nights?!
3am thoughts of suicide
It's like there's no more options, every choice we get is do or die...
So I try to focus on the bigger picture
Who am I kidding? I ain't weak enough to pull this trigger, chea!
Searchin' for my peace of mind
I'm sick & tired of being left behind...