[Verse 1:]
On a scale of 1-10, my self esteem is negative
I f**ing hate myself, I am my own nemesis
I look in the mirror and see a hideous ba*tard
My reflection's been tarnished from continuous laughter
Don't know what I'm after, don't know what my dreams are
I'm a fantastic rapper but being one seems hard
f** fame and being constantly out on the road
I want a family, man this sh** is outta control
But this rap sh** - it's all I can conquer
Why couldn't I do magic or be a damn doctor
Not to mention my dark thoughts, I ain't no saint
I'm f**ing crazy, I need a brain constraint
I'm throwin' myself into panic attacks
Wanting to load the .9 up and cram it with bra**
But f** it, I guess I'll carry on with this legacy
And stay strong till I'm gone and nothing's left of me
[Hook:]
God said love thy neighbors and thy enemy
But I am my enemy, so what's my remedy?
I hate myself, you don't have to feel empathy
But you don't know what I've gone through mentally
You're hurtful words that I chose to swallow
Made me bite my tongue and soak in sorrow
Now I'm empty like a broken bottle
And clenching this blade like there's no tomorrow
[Verse 2:]
[Hook]
[Verse 3:]
Lately, it feels like my brain hates me
Hate me, sh**
It basically makes me
So I give in and let the blade serrate me
Make the gun face me, let it erase me