Alexis - Where I'm At lyrics

Yeah That's real I've been trying to a really long time To stay on the grind And I've been succeeding, but it's not that easy I've gone through a lot of pain Just to try and make it in this game f**, I've been drive insane The first song I ever wrote was when I was ten I didn't even know real life back then I didn't know trials, or heartache I didn't know that my heart would break When my first love left me for someone else That day was like hell But I moved on and found someone better Karma's a b**h and he knows it I grew up seeing a lot of things that people didn't Country clubs and private jets I didn't even know the real world yet f**, I don't even know if I know it yet I don't know if I ever will But I know I've dealt with personal problems Like pill popping, and anxiety And depression, and boys leaving me But sh**, who hasn't? I remember sitting on the beach Beautiful sunset and everyone was happy But I wasn't happy, I was freaking out And that's when I realized that it was time for me to get some help Some people gotta deal with that sh** and I was one of them I'm a little better now, I don't feel like I'll drown And I know my calling is to entertain And to show people they're dreams are real And I mean that, I see that And I preach that, and I speak that And I'll show that until the day I die If I could help anyone who have felt like me, then thats a good thing I remember when I was on the soccer team And people used to bully me Cause I was the rich kid from west county And they lived farther out And I remember feeling so down Like there was something that was wrong with me But now I realize that money doesn't even mean a f**ing thing That had nothing to do with me, it had something to do with them And maybe they'll think about how they treated me Maybe they'll be sorry And maybe they'll feel bad when I don't give them a single thing Cause I know the people who've been there for me Through it all, the good times and the bad And I'm so thankful for that And I wanna do some real sh**, yeah I wanna make a difference I'm tired of just sitting around, watching the whole world around me spin around And I don't know, how to help, but I really want to try Cause I know what it feels like to feel down, like you can't get up Cause I've been there before I felt helpless, and horrible, and felt like I couldn't do sh** But I know that you can get better, and I know that you will If you believe in yourself You just gotta pick yourself up when you fall down Cause no one else is gonna stick around, it's only you in the end And you can't pretend that someone's gonna come around and save you Cause no one will, you're the only hero in your life You gotta start doing things right And whether I'm sick or broken hearted I'll make sure the fire in my heart gets started Cause I got a drive and a mentality that people will start to look up to me And they'll believe in me, when they hear lyrics so inspiring That's why I write songs about real life That's why I'm trying to make sure I do this right Cause I don't wanna be a sell out, or a fake, or a phony, or whatever I'm just trying to make sure that I'm getting better Every single day at this craft, cause that's what I'm good at it (voice) Is she serious? She can't rap, she can't do that. It's just a phase I still don't believe you. I guess we'll find out