Akeldama - Desolate and Lost lyrics

"The cold grip of d**h has taken her from me I watched her color drain, as her life did flee How this has come to pa**, I can not comprehend I can only blame myself, for my love's tragic end In my misery I find myself in a subconscious state It focuses me and frees me from this unending ache In this setting I have come to the apotheosis of my zen The idea that in d**h I can find her once again"