Akala - Cold lyrics

Can I take you back for a minute It's not just lyrics I live it I'm spillin my spirit On the beat like streets cold as blizzards Late night drownin' my sorrow in a bottle of spirits Was a sweet child, that characters missing No trace Now it's bora in coat and screw face Colder, soldier, angry young male Don't ask how, you already know the tale Never lived with my father Nasty break up with my mum and her partner And of course, times was harder Moms did her best with the strength she could muster But she so stressed it was us that would suffer Plus school teachers hate me, say that I'm feisty Play all kinda mind games to try break me Helped turn a innocent kid, into a ignorant pig f** em anyway, I still got straight A's Winter was real, no gas I went to bed in full clothing Back when my world was closing in and mom was sick I can't explain the pain when the news came Sorta like the blizzard that came after the rain My mind was a prison, I visioned the worst Ran home from school, wanted to get there first Didn't want either of my sisters, to find what I pictured Moms was too strong, she just soldiered on Dad, I ain't mad Don't think I don't understand But I still had to learn how to be a man Standing on my own two, not the way you supposed to Funny how the cycle repeats Nobody showed you, Wouldn't believe I told you what I had to go through Pressure couldn't fold me, but turnt my heart cold G What don't k** you make you strong supposedly That must be why nobody can hold me Yeah I had a struggle, but really it's sugar-coated When you think of all the millions barely living and hopeless In the news Mother and child, bellies bloated Put yourself in their shoes, knowin' d**h is approaching But it's not fate, it's bait, they were thrown in The deep end of the endless ocean of mans sin Politics, religion, man philosophize Got technology and television Still don't know why the worlds a weight on top of your shoulders But we fold up, true we can't hold up them boulders I been through the sh**, but came out like roses I'm blessed, don't ever think I don't notice I know I got a path, but it's hard to stay focused Specially on these roads, where foes are like roaches Foul and I crush em and I won't even notice If I lose my way, I just want you to know this