Aissa Spades - Balance Pt.2 lyrics

(Verse 1) And you're the reason why I don't believe in good things And you're the reason why I don't believe in wedding rings And you're the reason why my pa**ion for the art sings A warped fantasy of Gepetto, pull my heart strings And you're the reason why I can't find younger me, and you're the reason why loving just seems so new to me And you're the reason why I'm drowning when I need to breathe Soak in the poison cus salvation is a myth to me And you're the reason why I no longer believe in religion, no matter what others think I'll never get my redemption And you're the reason why rejection is a d**h sentence Give out my soul cus really ain't nothing much left of it And youre the reason why I suffer from f**in depression Align my chakras, meditation, I'll soon get the message And I'll tell everybody that you're the why, I let no one get close But in reality I can't fathom I hate myself the most (Vamp) And baby tell me what you want from me, baby tell me what you want from me I sippy, sippy on the henny, flow tears like its Jodeci To figure out what I'm posed to be (Hook) Oh you gotta love it.... Oh you gotta love it.... Oh you gotta love it... Oh you gotta love it…. Oh you gotta love it And I just wanna ... I just wanna oh... (x3) Love and be loved .... (Verse 2) Roll of Thunder was prophesied to cry... But tell me can you hear me roar Cus I been drowning under waters that's too deep for me drink And I don't know how to cope since you've been gone And I admit I ain been the same since my Uncle pa**ed But I had to play strong because my mom can't Keyword on the play because when you went away I wasn't ready to say goodbye to your face, so I lied to skip your funeral Another regret, another darkness that just weighs on my chest Please tell me am I allowed to be selfish Am I finally allowed to cry like I wanted to I hate that in your final moments I deserted you I never sent that verse back, I know it hurt you I hate telling the truth because it hurts too I struggle with forgiveness not from other people, but from the very man that spit this verse to you (Hook) (Vamp) I know love is what you want from me, but my papa ain't teach me how to jump start an engine